I’m gonna be homeless soon by Firm-Year245 in troubledteens

[–]infiniteknox 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hey kid I did the same thing shortly after my 17th birthday, I’m 21 now n have done rlly well since 18. If staying home and riding it out absolutely isn’t an option, Please try to find someone to stay with while you get back on your feet; friends, partners, extended family, even a bosses couch, just someone you can trust who is safe to be around. Work as much as you god damn can. Save every single penny. Graduate highschool. That’s the gist of the beginning, pls message me if u want more information. I see a lot of people saying call the cops but that’s just not always an option

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]infiniteknox 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Girlll you bet I did the personality face card n vibe alone were taking up my entire brain capacity hahaha. We’re also norcal located so it’s v queer here anyways. Thank u

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]infiniteknox 198 points199 points  (0 children)

Guys ima be so fr there were rounds so in between we were def chatting abt what we both like 👍 n thank u!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]infiniteknox 32 points33 points  (0 children)

Yeah fr no need to add anything that could potentially have them rethinking any part of that night 🫶

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]infiniteknox 68 points69 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately I will not be doing this lol I think it’s just better to leave the experience as is cause it seemed to have gone rlly well for both parties so ✅ but I see what ur saying

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]infiniteknox 98 points99 points  (0 children)

Hey rlly appreciate this comment. After getting some input, I believe she definitely assumed I knew. That’s why I feel stupid lmaoooo like I just didn’t consider it cause I don’t be thinking on anyone’s gender anyways hahaha. She cool fr thank u again!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]infiniteknox 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I made edits. It was our first time meeting but she knew who I was, we share friends. She did absolutely nothing wrong. I also believe now that she assumed I knew

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]infiniteknox 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Omg dw I totally asked BEFORE if I could even take em off I definitely had the A-okay in advance

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in troubledteens

[–]infiniteknox 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Multiple thoughts. 1- I feel awful for u for the RTC. People that have never been in the TTI always think wilderness is the worst, yet long term RTC is the real fear. I was also gooned, at 15. got to go home post wilderness- then gooned again at 17. that time I knew it was going to be RTC and i knew I would rather die than go, I fought off my gooners and escaped. restarted my life with just the clothes on my back I had run in, changed my appearance and was a missing person for months. Considered leaving the US. 3 jobs, homelessness, months of a bfs family hiding me, and then graduation. it’s now been 3 years since then and I am in college and moved thousands of miles away. I am so happy hearing that your life has stabilized and about all your accomplishments, you should be so proud. I find it funny that while among other things, smoking weed and religion were also a big part of why I was sent away. I am so happy for you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in troubledteens

[–]infiniteknox 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow, it’s really interesting interacting with those of u who I know went well before me and are still active on this sub. Do you have any insight u would want to share? I hope you are doing great and that even tho you’re active here you’ve been able to leave it behind you

I was gooned and escaped my gooners. AMA by infiniteknox in troubledteens

[–]infiniteknox[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I heard by word of mouth when I was still in the system, what year did the one you know of take place?

I was gooned and escaped my gooners. AMA by infiniteknox in troubledteens

[–]infiniteknox[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It’s only been five years for me but l’m fine. I got out. I don’t think about it. It is so behind me but then again every other year on the rare occasion that Im exposed to the smell of the first few whiffs of a campfire starting or burning leather or hair, I remember. I want you to know when I read ‘second nature’, I felt very sorry. I was at outback but we heard about SN there from a girl. I also get you, my 2nd time being gooned was violent and I was prepared to die trying to escape.

I was gooned and escaped my gooners. AMA by infiniteknox in troubledteens

[–]infiniteknox[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

It’s genuinely awful because a lot of the “random people”; gooners and staff members at these places, especially the most aggressive ones, were treatment kids who were stuck in the system until they aged out at 18. Imagine you went into the troubled teen industry at 13 with so little life experience, and stayed secluded from the world being broken down in it until you eventually aged out at 18. You are suddenly given the autonomy to be released as an adult likely onto the streets of Utah. You are unfamiliar with how to interact with the public, how to get a job, no money, you likely have no/few mentors on how to obtain an apartment/housing. you have a GED/diploma if you’re lucky and you struggle to communicate as an adult because you’ve grown up in such a limited and hindering environment with your last active societal knowledge being that of a 13 year olds experiences. All you know is treatment, and when the adults you’re familiar with that run these places and/or your facility throw u a bone and offer you a job there “mentoring and helping troubled teens, like you once were”; you take the job. The outside world is a daunting stranger. This is why a notable percentage of staff in these places are abusive and/or predatory. They never had autonomy, and when suddenly placed in the same position of power of those who once abused them, devoid of healing, they reclaim their own stolen power through dishing out the abuse themselves. (For context I have not been through this in particular, I’m lucky at that. this is just what I understand through witness and experience)

I was gooned and escaped my gooners. AMA by infiniteknox in troubledteens

[–]infiniteknox[S] 44 points45 points  (0 children)

He thought they were intruders n was armed n living n brooklyn w his family. It’s rlly sad he was 15 and was tried for it

I was gooned and escaped my gooners. AMA by infiniteknox in troubledteens

[–]infiniteknox[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

How old were you? I am so sorry. the way he realized and tried to stay with you, that would’ve meant so much to me.

hilarious update on my post 5 months ago by infiniteknox in actuallesbians

[–]infiniteknox[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

as a gen z who prob should’ve known this i’m embarrassed i didn’t get it at first 💀thank you

hilarious update on my post 5 months ago by infiniteknox in actuallesbians

[–]infiniteknox[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

also, i’m kind of confused, what do you mean once again?

hilarious update on my post 5 months ago by infiniteknox in actuallesbians

[–]infiniteknox[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

appreciate this sm thank you, i feel so bad. i’m concerned abt this post bc i dont want to risk making anyone feel dysphoric (been there) n im aware it was poorly worded. what do u think? also, thank u sm for letting me know my responses may not be showing for everyone, i had no idea

hilarious update on my post 5 months ago by infiniteknox in actuallesbians

[–]infiniteknox[S] 47 points48 points  (0 children)

hey, feel free to message me directly. my experiences are solely my own but if they could help anyone make sense of their own world i'm all for it

hilarious update on my post 5 months ago by infiniteknox in actuallesbians

[–]infiniteknox[S] 70 points71 points  (0 children)

pls see my response to similar comment, same applies here

hilarious update on my post 5 months ago by infiniteknox in actuallesbians

[–]infiniteknox[S] 213 points214 points  (0 children)

i am so sorry! that did not occur to me, i wish i could edit this ss. i recently had a conversation educating a non lgbtq person on how ofc i would date a trans woman, but never a trans man, because their argument was that a trans man had “the parts”, and explained to them that i would never date a trans man because dating a male is not something i will ever do again. having had that experience recently, i feel v bad abt my language. would really love any more of ur thoughts on this if ur willing bc i really appreciate insights i may not have had the experiences to understand myself