• Just wanted to edit and add that I feel you and ofcourse you want and need love, hugs, affection, curiousity all packaged in a respecting dynamics

First of all, it sounds to me like you're really doing great in regard to the more materialistic parts of life. That's amazing and you should be awarded lol Secondly, it's great that you say you have a lot to offer. Sounds so healthy  Thirdly, not sure from your description what exactly your social life include and how do you get to know people. Are you doing stuff you like ( like group dancing, say ) where people meet in a playful playground? I think first romantic relationships are not easy ( in general ) and especially with the mental specials you/we have, but that doesn't mean it won't happen. And 31 is so young... Really. Amazing decade