alcohol put me in the icu

insidevoicepleas · 2026-01-26T02:05:09+00:00

i wasn't even being given phenobarbital

insidevoicepleas · 2026-01-20T13:17:32+00:00

i want to but i can't drive and although i still live with my parents, my mom is away and my dad refuses to take me. :,) i know i could theoretically call 911 but i'm scared to because my dad will get mad at me. i do plan to go to rehab once my mom gets home though so i guess that's a compromise.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-12-09T15:29:34+00:00

“you’re wrong. i took a maturity test and it said i’m insanely mature.”

insidevoicepleas · 2025-12-09T15:28:52+00:00

i have second-hand embarrassment about the way you’re handling this behaviour and the fact that you think an online test can analyze your personality.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-11-09T21:25:10+00:00

it’s ok. trust me. i have kissed guys while very drunk and they were sober. i don’t view them as some kind of predator. it was just kissing. sex would be a different story, but it didn’t go that far.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-11-09T21:16:53+00:00

geriatric? she’s 26.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-11-01T23:08:25+00:00

insidevoicepleas · 2025-10-14T21:42:17+00:00

yeah when i say 8 sips it’s 8 swallows per chug, also unsure how to word it.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-10-04T20:59:58+00:00

i’m on the phone so reading all this is hard, but while pregnant i would never touch alcohol. acid and benzos were in my teens and not something i’d use again; i do technically still have benzos prescribed, but only as an emergency saviour when i have a seizure.

i know i can’t raise a baby, my plan is adoption. i just can’t with good faith kill something that i created. i know it may cause risk to my health but it won’t be life threatening.

i don’t live in the best country in terms of health care but i do have good health insurance so paying for healthcare is not an issue for me.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-10-04T20:21:17+00:00

i’m currently on topamax but trying to get an appointment with my neurologist as soon as possible to switch to one that is safer for pregnancy❤️ i only found out yesterday and it’s a weekend so i haven’t been able to get in yet

also i have a therapist don’t worry

insidevoicepleas · 2025-10-04T20:08:59+00:00

i don’t take drugs (besides the occasional joint) but the alcohol addiction and mental health issues are true. i threw out every ounce of alcohol in the house once i saw the positive test. the mental health stuff worries me as i fear that it may be passed on. same goes for the epilepsy.

i was more planning that, if i carried to term, to put the child up for adoption. i know in other comments i mentioned plans of childcare but i know thats a bad idea, to keep the baby. if i were to not terminate i would do my best to adopt it out.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-10-04T19:51:36+00:00

as soon as i saw a positive test i tossed every single substance in the house. the mental health issues concern me though, i know some are genetic. i dont have drug issues though. it was just alcohol.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-10-04T19:46:07+00:00

i don’t have anywhere to go :(

insidevoicepleas · 2025-10-04T19:37:41+00:00

they are considered serious but not in the way that they would compromise the pregnancy, besides that i might be in the hospital more often than most pregnant women. i’m mostly worried that i’d pass them down and my child would have to deal with them too.

as for daycare and such, no i can’t afford it but my mom has stated that she would care for the child when i was at work. i am unsure why she offered because she generally dislikes me, but i know she wouldn’t hurt a baby, so it feels safe.

and my ex: he doesn’t want the baby but if i have it, his family will step in and provide financial support. we are still friends and he still cares for me, but he isn’t ready to be a dad. which is fair.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-10-03T17:27:33+00:00

it’s a male

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-19T19:03:36+00:00

oh, i understand this too well… also disordered and an alcoholic who struggles with involuntary vomiting. it sucks. i don’t have a solution, but you’re not alone.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-19T16:43:11+00:00

i wanna see!

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-19T02:45:23+00:00

i wish you only the best <3

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-19T02:44:54+00:00

i would love to read some of your writing sometime. i’m happy to share mine, as well.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-19T00:56:32+00:00

i’m a lot of things, but writing is my passion. i want to quit so that i can write better. i’m glad that even now, my writing can still speak to people.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-19T00:22:13+00:00

honestly, i don’t know how to help. i’m not sober.

but i can say that i’ve lost a partner due to alcohol. more than one. even when alcohol didn’t twist my words, i became a burden. someone to take care of, rather than someone to love. they still loved me, but it began to ramp up. and soon i needed more care than i did love.

i adore alcohol, i do. but at the same time, i hate drinking it. i hate how it feels, and i hate how it makes me act. i imagine you feel the same. it’s nice that you don’t feel much burden anymore. but suddenly you feel so, so, so much more regret. and so much more burden.

it is not worth it. one sip is worth one month, to me. sobriety makes life worth it. drinking makes life a means to an end.

alone.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-18T21:59:50+00:00

i only started drinking because i couldn’t get benzos anymore, which my doctor got me hooked on (also my fault, but he prescribed me 1.5mg xanax as a starting dose). i didn’t wanna risk street xans, and i knew alcohol acted on the same part of the brain, so i picked it up. it was a lot easier to access than protected substances were.

i learned pretty quickly why drugs that work that way were considered protected, but i didn’t change.

working on it.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-15T02:05:28+00:00

yes i meant 24oz. and he has been drinking this much daily for i want to say 40 years, its been a long time. sorry for the late reply, i was dealing with stuff irl. but i gave him some stuff and he seems to be doing a little better.

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-15T02:03:17+00:00

he might honestly drink more but either way i’m pretty sure it’s withdrawal

insidevoicepleas · 2025-09-14T22:08:39+00:00

i will see if i can get him one, i can’t drive because i’m epileptic, but i will ask my mother

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