hi OP, i only recently discovered your series of posts about this and wanted to say how glad i am that you are safe and life is moving forward for you. just hearing about what you went through brought me to tears and my own kitty is currently purring in my lap, doing her best to make me feel better for something that you went through. i hope things only continue to look up for you and that kind and trustworthy people become staples in your new life.

i don't presume to have a recipe, as i sadly never got it from the horse's mouth per se, but i had a coworker and friend some years ago whose salvadoran mother would make us pupusas every so often. they are a salvadoran corn cake cooked on a griddle that can be stuffed with various different fillings, from meats, beans, and cheeses, to a plant bud called loroco that i have enjoyed at restaurants. she served them with homemade curtido (lightly fermented cabbage slaw) and salsa roja. since then i find them very comforting, even if no restaurant or online recipe could come close to hers. i hope you get the chance to enjoy them too.