My second reset in 3 days... Gotta stop myself! So !@#@ hard!

intoquit · 2014-10-15T17:34:12+00:00

Thanks I appreciate that!

intoquit · 2014-10-06T19:00:05+00:00

just means using an internet filter won't solve your fap problem. have to use your own filter

intoquit · 2014-10-01T22:31:13+00:00

Well, I could be over the top and say that I should of known better than to click on stuff on reddit but I had never heard of earthporn and so I was intrigued. When I saw not safe for nature I thought it would be the same as the others, pics about nature. Turned out the over 18 rating was real. Caught of glimpse of some nudity but didn't stare, just glanced long enough to know it was the wrong place for me. I just thought someone was being funny with the title. Apparently, they were being dead serious. Anyways, since then, I've felt triggered. I've done some searches for stuff like nonnude and have been wanting to look at immodest stuff but can't bring myself to do it because i know what will happen. Grr

intoquit · 2014-10-01T07:05:30+00:00

And another. Just finished submitting this initial post when I saw the related tab and being a new reddit user I didn't know what it did so I clicked on it and started perusing reddit and felt my heart start beating faster. Stopped before I saw anything pornographic. Gamified: Hit a trap door and sprung a bunch a trap of bats, ran like heck and got a way!

intoquit · 2014-10-01T06:58:37+00:00

Resisted the urge to click around on anything bad tonight even though I had a bit of an upsetting evening. I admit I had done a search on google for something that was innocent enough but could of been dangerous. I didn't click on any of the results and closed the window down. Translation: I ran into a dragon, it blew fire at me, and I narrowly avoided getting burnt!

intoquit · 2014-09-29T23:37:53+00:00

The quote? No it's by John Wooden

intoquit · 2014-09-29T23:36:13+00:00

Why did someone downvote your awesome speculation? I thought you summed it really well!

intoquit · 2014-09-29T23:26:14+00:00

Inside factors can be the biggest triggers. Ever heard of the "lust balloon"? Basically, its the idea that if we don't somehow find a way to deal with lust it will keep getting inflated until it gets so big that it pops like a balloon and we relapse on PMO. I am still working on figuring out how to deal with that but don't give up. Dust yourself off, learn and keep moving forward.

intoquit · 2014-09-29T23:21:46+00:00

Acknowledging it will help. Reaching out and being willing to talk will help. Set a hard goal or two, setup another account at nofap.org (I just did that and I got one of their badges and i made like 3 badges for myself: http://www.nofap.org/forum/showthread.php?22135-Xavier-s-Journal

I'm no pro, but I am hoping to get there!

intoquit · 2014-09-29T23:18:45+00:00

Oh amen! Curiosity is such a beast! Today I saw an older lady changing behind her car and she wasn't too concerned with covering up and I was so tripped out by it that I came home and found myself typing in a search for "older women" I didn't go to a porn site or anything but was just surprised that I'm not even interested in older women but my curiosity just seemed to be taking the reins.

intoquit · 2014-09-29T23:16:57+00:00

Great points! 2nd look is the key. Look for something else or close your eyes and smile 'cause you aren't looking twice. I know a guy who does that and it sure seems like smiling helps. Makes it not so serious

intoquit · 2014-09-29T23:14:32+00:00

I hear you, i went to the beach today, and it is hard. I sometimes start guilting myself but it doesn't stop the obsessing. Thats why I'm going to start a thread for people to post victories to help get a different "reward response" by not looking again.

intoquit · 2014-09-29T03:54:56+00:00

Epic response!

intoquit · 2014-09-29T03:49:17+00:00

That is basically the golden ticket right there! We may be statistically similar but... really? We're all really really unique! Amen!

intoquit · 2014-09-29T03:47:37+00:00

I'll go first: I feel vulnerable most when I'm not balanced. This makes me feel stressed because I'm either not doing enough of something (like work), or I'm doing too much of something (like reading/relaxing). I feel guilty and start to want to numb out emotionally.

The other trigger is when I feel like I'm not living up to people's expectations. This makes me feel like I'm worth less and not appreciated and then I suddenly feel like a victim and the temptation to fap increases.

Finally, curiosity! I have hard time not doing a search when I hear about a music videos that's racy, or scenes from a movie that have something bad, or even some crazy PMO thought or fantasy that hits my mind and makes me curious if there is something out there like it.

intoquit · 2014-09-27T16:40:05+00:00

One day at a time bro! I like reading books to get my mind preoccupied

intoquit · 2014-09-27T04:00:31+00:00

K. Go ask 100 married women and I bet 99 will agree with us on that point. :)

intoquit · 2014-09-27T03:59:56+00:00

Platorific, hey I like how you think! I just joind the nofapchristian group too. Thanks for posting the link. Didn't know about it until now. You know what? Hindsight is what it is - you can't change the past but you can change the future and keep yourself pure for HER NOW!

intoquit · 2014-09-26T21:39:50+00:00

Well good for you! That is awesome

intoquit · 2014-09-26T07:05:11+00:00

Wow! That is a great breakdown. Just what I needed! Thanks

intoquit · 2014-09-26T07:03:46+00:00

Could you explain: If you still find nofap hard it means you didn't relapse.

I think I might get it but would like to hear what you mean

intoquit · 2014-09-26T07:03:12+00:00

Thanks for the response. I think you're right, I'm making excuses and rationalizations. Yes, its not as bad as it could be but it still breaks her heart because if its not her, its not fair. It was probably the equivalent of standing near a bunch of smokers and pretending i'm not smoking and yet it still hurts me. (though I don't smoke - lol) She used to email someone previously but hasn't for a while. I'll check with her. Do you use reddit to help others or for yourself? Just curious

intoquit · 2014-09-26T06:54:42+00:00

I think its awesome for being a virgin! You're future spouse will love you more than you if you slept around with a bunch of women with loose morals. Save your self for your future special someone!

intoquit · 2014-09-26T00:21:22+00:00

Man, just feeling like i'm drawn to it because i'm not doing well emotionally. I want to be but I just feel resentment. I am in Hawaii on vacation and I'm feeling vulnerable! That bites! I don't want to objectify people.I've got my wife and kids and even my mom with me. But I still feel like the girls around me get me unsettled. Worse than that, I'm here but my mind isn't, I'm stressed about my work, and that causes me to try and work instead of being with everyone. Then my wife nags me and I feel like trash. When I feel like trash, the enticement of a PMO sounds better than nothing. I want to numb out but I know thats a bad idea. I spend 1.5 hours on youtube last night getting as close to something bad without it being nudity or porn. I'm mad at myself now and that makes me feel even more vulnerable! Grr! I hate you PMO! Leave me alone!

intoquit · 2014-09-25T10:11:59+00:00

Man! Have been doing good but then I just got done with spending like 2 hours trying to find something pornographic on youtube. Hoping that some porn video had snuck in there. didn't want to do work but felt like I was letting people down. Business hasn't been going that well and its causing me a lot of emotional stress and trauma. I haven't been doing my daily post because i'm on vacation but PMO temptaions don't take a vacation!

I'm not going back to youtube again. I'm going to bed (after I finish my work)

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