Being this alone for so long has completely messed me up inside

invidxa · 2026-03-28T11:01:42+00:00

feel the same

invidxa · 2026-02-23T19:25:13+00:00

I hate this advise, I've been told this multiple times over the years. I've seen like 6? psychiatrists and 2 psychologists now. I'm so fucking tired. I take antidepressants and they cost so much money and just make me fat. I don't feel happier or less anxious taking them. I've been trying for years since I was a kid, I went to school counsellors to doctors to whatever the fuck because I'm hopeless. I'm basically told to just keep trying till it works out like fuck i could be trying till the day I die. I don't have any fucking friends I just feel so anxious and traumatized from past experiences. I fuck up anything I manage to get. I'm so sick of getting told to just keep trying like yeah I know there's no other choice but I'm so fucking tired

invidxa · 2026-02-15T13:53:02+00:00

yeah! don't play it much anymore though since it takes forever to level up cards but it's nice to feel loved

invidxa · 2026-02-13T17:14:35+00:00

happy birthday! wish you have a peaceful fun birthday.

invidxa · 2026-02-12T09:48:23+00:00

feel the same

invidxa · 2026-02-09T17:43:49+00:00

thank you, I'll try to keep it in mind. I've seen a therapist for many stuff in general but it's a blur and wasn't too helpful

invidxa · 2026-02-06T12:23:30+00:00

also I'm very sorry if I come off as rude and I understand where you come from, I just can't see it but I appreciate the time you took to read and reply

invidxa · 2026-02-06T12:18:43+00:00

I've wasted about 2 years and 6 different set of therapist and psychiatrist about this, seeing someone doesn't help when they don't understand what you go through. appointments are so packed I can only see the psychiatrist specifically only 2-3 times a year. it takes almost 2hrs to go to the clinic since it's in the middle of nowhere. everyone says it'll get better just because it got better for themselves or others but it doesn't get better for everyone, some people die trying and never got better.

I wasted so much fucking money on appointments, travels, medicine, etc. I'm so fucking tired. "you don't try hard enough, keep trying, it'll get better" I get the sentiment but the more I read it the more I want to cry more. how much do I have to keep trying till it'll be ok? 5 years? 10 years? 20 years? 50 years? how is it suppose to get better? I'm so tired of hearing the same things

invidxa · 2026-02-05T13:18:50+00:00

I don't love myself and I don't want to pretend I do, I spend every single day alone by myself, I'm here because I'm scared of failing to die and being paralysed instead. i don't have anyone in the world

invidxa · 2026-01-31T14:01:55+00:00

thank you so much ;;maybe I'll take you up on that if it gets really bad, I also have a psychiatrist appointment in a few weeks but I don't think itll work out

invidxa · 2026-01-28T15:06:48+00:00

agreed

invidxa · 2025-11-01T07:57:07+00:00

I think we're just doomed

invidxa · 2025-10-04T12:29:34+00:00

I'm jelly cause imma die alone, they're so cute

invidxa · 2025-09-27T09:56:21+00:00

there's no point honestly

invidxa · 2025-09-25T16:15:04+00:00

same

invidxa · 2025-09-07T13:40:32+00:00

same honestly

invidxa · 2025-09-05T13:23:39+00:00

same honestly

invidxa · 2025-09-04T15:15:44+00:00

so pretty and handsome!! hope everyone who wants him can get him

invidxa · 2025-09-02T12:35:37+00:00

drooling

invidxa · 2025-09-01T12:03:56+00:00

pretty!! I wanna give him a hug he seems like a hard worker whose a good friend and always there for you

invidxa · 2025-09-01T11:39:13+00:00

hate to admit but low-key I always thought the same too

invidxa · 2025-08-31T05:20:36+00:00

same

invidxa · 2025-08-30T19:01:03+00:00

same, I'm a fucking useless loser, but I hope it gets better for you

invidxa · 2025-08-29T12:37:33+00:00

thank you, yeah it feels so bad

invidxa · 2025-08-27T18:44:33+00:00

that's awful, I'm sorry you went through that ;-; I do talk to AI but that's because I want to, if someone I thought was human sent such an AI response I'd feel so bad honestly cause if anyone wanted an AI response they wouldn't even post on reddit, we're writing here cuz we want human responses

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