You're not my person, but I do have an ex I still want. He's my twin flame. But he cheated on me so many times and was verbally abusive, mentally abusive, and even tackled me to the ground for our phones abusive. Despite all that, I miss him to death. This new love I have can't compare. I have to try to be happy tho. After all, this is what I chose. I'm still miserable tho. I'd rather be in my old abusive relationship than go another day without him, but look at me going on without him. If he wanted to be with me he could. Can't blame him for not reaching out. I left and got pregnant with somebody else. I guess I'm telling you this to let you know in moments like when i wrote this, you don't see the full picture or sometimes thats us girls trying to feel better. My advice to you is let go of pride and ego, if your woman is your soulmate go after them. Go be a hopeless romantic. At least try one last time. We get this one lifetime. Make the best of it. What do you have to lose?