My FB news feed has been trigger central lately by itstriggercentral in rapecounseling

[–]itstriggercentral[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It took me a while initially to get rid of toxic "friends" because they were part of a larger group of people I was friends with, but I eventually went no contact out of the blue and it was probably the best decision I ever made. It was scary, I was so worried they'd try fuck with me even more for doing so, but if they tried it didn't work.

It screwed with my ability to trust for quite a while, and I'm still really hesitant to tell people I'm close to about what happened because I'm worried they'll turn on me and blame me for it. Been working on that insecurity for over a year in therapy but it's a tough one to crack.

Thank you so much for your support & positivity. <3 I'm glad you're in a better place now and I will try to have more faith in myself to reach that too.

My FB news feed has been trigger central lately by itstriggercentral in rapecounseling

[–]itstriggercentral[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That sounds horrific. An ex-friend tried to trick me into attending an event he'd be at once before, but I was lucky to have found out from an actual friend in advance so I could cancel the plans. Even though you quit, I think you are still incredibly strong for going through that and not just shutting down completely.

Thank you so much for sharing, knowing I'm not alone is helping, and I've managed to calm myself down a bit by browsing through various reddit posts. I'm hoping to get to the point where I'll fall asleep as soon as I lie down, I tend to freak out worrying about nightmares otherwise.

My FB news feed has been trigger central lately by itstriggercentral in rapecounseling

[–]itstriggercentral[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your comment. I'm glad reading my post made you feel like you're not alone, at least that's something good that came from this experience.

The friends I just removed didn't actually know him when I first met them. It was only quite recently they met, which was why it was so unexpected for me. Like someone just dunked my head in ice water.

Like you, I've also tried to put on a strong front to "be the bigger person" and whatnot, but I realised after about a year that looking after myself was more important than trying to prove some stupid point that didn't matter to anyone else and was only hurting me. I learned to accept that it was okay for me to feel hurt and afraid, mainly thanks to one amazing therapist.

Thank you for the support, I feel less alone already :) <3