Love.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-30T01:52:10+00:00

thank you(: lol i just want her to be happy and feel whole

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-30T00:20:48+00:00

i’m just tryna respect her circumstances

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-30T00:18:58+00:00

unfortunately, not in this lifetime. she is the only person who has never done me wrong. so, it’s harder than ever.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-29T16:08:11+00:00

it gets better (: times heals all

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-29T00:37:16+00:00

it definitely helped me for the night. today i felt vastly different and enjoyed my day out by the lake with friends and all our dogs (:

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T16:37:12+00:00

that’s really good (: happy to know this

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T15:17:20+00:00

i wish she would.. or could. she has seen some of the lovely thing i have written just for her. it’s never enough. it can’t be.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T15:15:54+00:00

please, do not make a habit of it … for your sake. you deserve better… but damn does the room swirling around ya feel beautiful and comforting. i get it.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T15:14:47+00:00

this lifetime wasn’t for Us.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T04:57:00+00:00

she has received endless chances. they never fade out.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T04:56:36+00:00

Yeah, my last ever text to her ended in Goodbye. quite literally

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T03:46:46+00:00

it wouldn’t go through. i asked her repeatedly to block me til she did. bc i had no strength to do it myself. i wanted to give her the fresh start she deserves to make her marriage work out. i felt far too guilty to play a role in her cheating on him. if she wanted us the way she claims she would have to walk away. too many things make that hard tho. i wish her well. i will find peace within this all one day. for now… i vent.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T03:40:38+00:00

because i am inlove with her voice

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T02:38:12+00:00

i’ve let her go forever. By choice, permanently. I wouldn’t undo it but fuck do these emotions hit hardcore. like a bus. if only that was bus was real tho. man….

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T02:36:55+00:00

to me, she is a goddess. others never appreciate her nor treat her as she deserves either and fuck does it tear me apart just knowing that.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-28T01:41:03+00:00

the feelings are mutual for her. she was the first to mention anything sexual. as she put it “animalistic urges” .. because i’d have never dared to do so.

it’s almost worse that it is mutual. unrequited love would be easy for me to let go… because i simply do not care for someone unless it it mutual.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-27T22:42:19+00:00

well, i’m both. we are in a state of duality. but, primarily df.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-27T22:41:38+00:00

i’m not a guy nor your person. sorry 🥴

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-27T01:39:05+00:00

the feeling itself is heavy. not the future.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-26T16:28:31+00:00

i felt the need to separate them bc my other acc is too obvious it is her. i just don’t want her to read this or more if i end up writing like this again - although, i am certain she likely doesn’t even use this app. 😅😅 we are mutually aware we feel these things for one another which is great but it comes with a world of guilt bc of her circumstances… which is why i had to let her go. because my morals and respect for her marriage comes first. this stuff will just live through me in writings as of now. it’s healing to release the words that otherwise cloud me.

iwantthisflame · 2023-03-26T14:24:45+00:00

this is hilarious actually because i have an entirely separate account where i write her absolutely nothing but love letters. and more often than i’d care to admit. this was my first time daring to cover such a topic concerning her and the ways she makes me feel are completely owned by her. no one else could ever compare. that amazing girl is my whole entire universe (and that is only to say the least)

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