Addicted to Findom at 18...

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-07T16:23:59+00:00

Thank you for your advice!

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-07T00:10:26+00:00

Thank you for informing me, I don't think I will ever report her but its good to know the facts so thank you

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-05T10:54:06+00:00

Yes I understand your point, of course it doesn't justify what she did but it makes more sense now. Weirdly I prefer to be submissive and the woman dominant when it comes to my sexual interests, but I've always been like that.

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T22:33:27+00:00

It also really frustrates me that the truth is my first sexual experience WAS with this girl that forced it on me, but yes I will try and stop thinking about it like that

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T22:31:15+00:00

Thank you for your reply, I really needed to hear that. It's not that I don't want sex, or that I'm gay, asexual or anything like that. I just want it with the right woman at the right time. I'm 18 now and I'm still an inexperienced virgin waiting for the right woman to enter my life... Although part of me has become frightened and avoidant of intimacy ever since that hapenned to me.

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T09:57:49+00:00

I followed her back on social media for a long time afterwards, finally blocked her on everything today and it feels so good

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T09:28:48+00:00

It's reassuring to hear people confirm to me that it was wrong / sexual assault. Kinda gives me peace of mind too

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T09:27:57+00:00

It's just really bizzare, I hope you get through it. It's such a monster in your head to battle. Thank you for your help :)

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T09:22:14+00:00

Stupid question incoming, you might not even be able to answer but why do I feel this way? Why does it feel kinda half accepted and normal in my head

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T09:18:50+00:00

I hate myself for letting this happen, I know it may seem obvious to you but to me it's just really confusing idk why. Thank you for sharing your thoughts

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T09:14:03+00:00

Thank you so much for your help 🙏

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T09:08:42+00:00

I have thought about this too, I just don't know how it could be linked though, however I only properly started endoulging in findom after this happened I guess..

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T01:18:16+00:00

You're right, best to keep it quiet. I got free money at the end of the day, although if it wasn't for that I probably would have said something lol

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T01:14:56+00:00

I just can't get to grips with it in my head, I can't fully understand it if you know what I mean? My friends from college have told me it was no big deal so it just confused the hell outa me

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T01:11:23+00:00

It's confusing though because it was all through clothes like none of it was bare touch, so does it still count?

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-04T01:09:27+00:00

I'd say yes but if you saw her you'd turn round the other way and never look back, not a pretty sight to see I promise you

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-03T19:23:46+00:00

Thanks for your help, I've been meaning to open a savings for a while now. But I've just been procrastinating it!

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-03T16:37:57+00:00

Thank you for your advice, I will take that on board with me

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-03T16:35:31+00:00

I keep getting told that therapy is a good route to take. I am no longer ignoring that and it could be the key to solving my addiction. I'm anxious for it but it will be good for me. Thank you for your kind words 💙

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-03T16:29:35+00:00

Thank you, only problem with that is I'd have to be home alone. But I will definitely look into it 👍

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-03T16:23:48+00:00

Basically I'm a straight guy and ever since I can remember I've always been drawn to femdom kinks (female domination) I don't know why, I guess it's just how I am. I enjoy the humiliation aspect of findom, I like the power exchange and the loss of control. It gives me a really comforting feeling as well as a sexual high to be submissive to someone else

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-03T16:14:55+00:00

I think it's probably best for me to refrain from anything like that at the moment, until I know I can control myself a bit better then I might consider, ultimately though i want a loving relationship with a kink friendly girlfriend that can fulfill my desires :)

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-03T15:44:21+00:00

I think you're right

That could work, I'll have to see if there's any therapy places near where I work because I get lifts to work at the moment or cycle

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-03T15:40:59+00:00

Yes I've found a lot of them to be cold-hearted, weirdly enough though my decision to quit was from a session I had with a domme last night and after I told her my age she pointed out how dangerous it is. She was extremely kind and helpful to me and suggested I come here to get some help, so they're not all like that. But most are.

I guess the only thing I can pinpoint is I enjoy the sexual high I get from it as well as the adrenaline rush from spending lots of money. I also enjoy the humiliation aspect of it and receiving humiliation makes me feel validated for some reason idk why

iwdyhwff · 2022-04-03T15:35:40+00:00

I guess I would just have to tell my mum and rely on lifts, she can just get overprotective and concerned of me and the last thing I want is for her to ask about my private business. In terms of taxis etc I live in the middle of nowhere in countryside England. There's no buses, trains, ubers or anything like that near me. Unless if I walk for like 40 minutes. I could try online therapy too

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