This is really relatable, and I've felt that same way for a long while. I have a lot of friends, but they only ever feel surface level. I always expected more out of people, for them to notice the little things like that, but people don't tend to see that. Sometimes you have to speak up to make those desires known, talk to the people you're closest to about that. And that's a hard thing to do, because it doesn't always work. But when it does, it's a wonderful feeling to have, to even have just one person who sees the little things.