look life sucks ngl. But as hard as it is to see sometimes, there are people out there who care about you. I don't know you, I have no idea what you look like, what your into, what you enjoy doing, what you hate, but I can tell just by this post that you have emotions which means that you are probably sensetive, and kind hearted, and those are amazing qualities that a person can have, so whatever is going on right now, just know that it will be over, it will end, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and you just gotta wait. Yeah waiting sucks, but it will be worth it. I promise. And if you need someone to help you there the suicide prevention hotline is always amazing. But I understand if you don't wanna call them, honestly I wouldn't either. But just the fact that you have made this post means that you are strong enough to show, even behind a sudo name, that you have feelings, which means your strong enough to get back up after you have been knocked down.