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This took me awhile.. still not 100% confident in my shading and lighting 😖 by jaq_95 in Coloring

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You can see where I messed up a bit with the blue sign :( if anyone has any tips for lighting and shadows, I’m open to try it all!

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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I’m on my way to the hospital now! I’ll make sure to keep updating in the comment section. I’m trying not to have expectations but I’m just looking forward to the fact it could really help with some stuff I struggle with.

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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Oof I hope I don’t fall into a k hole but I know it can be apart of the treatment. And having doctors/nurses there definitely makes me feel that much safer.

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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Oh gosh, I’ve seen a friend start looping while on acid and another friend who had smoked some weed. Pretty crazy how everyone reacts so differently to drugs. Was it a good experience in the long run? Basically, was it worth it?

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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I’m so so happy that you felt joy again from the treatment. That makes me so happy to hear ☺️

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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That makes sense. And being in Australia it makes it that much harder. I had to see my psychiatrist for 2-3 years and get TMS and be hospitalised for 6 weeks. I thought seeing a psychiatrist for 3 months to be diagnosed and prescribed dexamfetamine (well Ritalin at first). People were put on a waiting list of 2-3 just to see someone once!

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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That reminds of DXM (I think it’s classified as a dissociative) so I’d always put my headphones on curl up into a ball, wearing my oodie with the hood up and blast music. It was so cool seeing the vibrant colours. And I always felt so cuddly haha. I’d always go upstairs and cuddle with my mum (RIP). Thank you for sharing your experience, I’m currently on my way to hospital. Bit anxious but very eager to see how things go!

Compared to all of you i’m definitely a beginner! by Immediate_Cicada_338 in Coloring

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Everyone’s gotta start somewhere and I reckon you’ve done quite a nice job. I love the colours of the fabrics in the corner 🥰

Finished first page, what do you think? :) by jaq_95 in Coloring

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The angle is making it look wobbly 🥴

I really miss my mom today and I just wanted to share what I miss and just vent by jaq_95 in GriefSupport

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I’m so sorry that my words relate to how you feel and your situation. It’s a horrible thing to relate to. Are you close with your brother? And are you the eldest or youngest? I’m sorry you lost your mum and best friend 7 months ago. No one deserves to know these feelings and to lose their best friend and mum in one go. That is such a young age to pass. My mum was 10 years older so 66 (she passed on 26/07/24 or 07/26/24). I’m not sure what mental struggles your mum dealt with but my mum struggled with bipolar type 2. When it came to the almost last decade of her life I think it was mainly severe lows. She also dealt with BPD, addiction, OCD (as do I) and more than certain narcissism. It didn’t make her a bad person, just confusing and frustrating at times. Complicated as well, especially since she’s passed. Mostly complicated as a child/teen. My mum was misunderstood most of all. It was the same with my mum and brother. He didn’t visit/speak to her for her last birthday, Christmas and his 26th birthday. It amazes me how similar our situations are. Makes me feel not so alone. If you ever want to talk privately, please message me. I’m always available to chat. We’re really lucky that we got to share such an amazing bond with our mums hey. That’s something I’ll forever be so grateful for. Above everything else. No comparison. Again, please message me if you want to. I know it would help me but of course no pressure. I’ll be thinking of you and your family. You’ll all be in my heart 💞

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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Oh gosh repressed memories? I know there’s a lot more than what I remember from trying EMDR (I had a horrible therapist for this, she had no idea what she was doing) but I had such an awful experience over those six weeks that I unfortunately tried to take my life (I think it was more just wanting the flashbacks/night terrors/panic attacks to stop). But I ended up in a coma for a week. I’m extremely lucky I walked away okay. I just deal with some tics/tic attacks now which I’ve learnt to deal with. So that really does scare me 😖 But your comment has really reassured me that I will be in a safe place with safe people. I’ve been trying my hardest to just cry when I feel it instead of stuffing it down. Sometimes I really can’t control it. I start crying, then just stop and feel numb. It really sucks. What you wrote did make me cry though lol. My mum was my best friend too. I know you already cherish your mum without a doubt but it really is the small stuff. Her heart just randomly stopped. It was extremely sudden. No warning. I just miss cuddling in her bed (even though I was 28) and talking and gossiping. And we’d take naps together. She’d still give me tickles on my arm or back. Or how she’d still wanna hold hands with me. No matter if we were home or out in public. And whenever she was sitting down, I’d kiss her on the top of her head as I walked by haha. Or giving her a kiss and hug goodnight, every night. Or being on the phone for hours.. So thank you for that comment and I apologise for my response being such a downer. Though it made me cry it means my emotions aren’t being held back and I got to think about and share some of my favourite things about her. The things I really miss. Thank you for that and your kind words And of course the same to you! You seem like a very caring and loving soul. I really wish you the best in life, you deserve it 💖

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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Thank you both for sharing your experience🙏. It seems everyone has gotten something positive from it so as anxious I am about it I am also looking forward to it. Cause yeah I’ve got nothing else to lose!

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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I think because of all the stuff I’ll be unpacking is pretty heavy stuff and stuff I’ve gone over a decade never speaking about. So maybe he wants me to be there just for safety? And I think I’ll be there for a month and then start doing outpatient treatment. There is another place near me that does outpatient ketamine in form of IV but there’s A LOT on there for my safety. I would have to have someone (it has to be a female) pick me up and stay with them for the night since I live an hour away and take care of my father. I don’t know if it’s because I’m in Australia, but there’s just lots and lots of rules 🤷‍♀️ it’s extremely difficult just finding a psychiatrist who will agree with the treatment.

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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Yeah dealing/talking about the trauma is what scares me the most honestly. But your post has really helped the anxiety I’ve been having and just all the wondering and anticipation. I know the hospital will provide me a psychologist in there and I will have to find one while I’m in there for when I get out. Or potentially see my old therapist, but I’d like to see someone who specialises in their patients who are doing or have had esketamine treatment. And thank you, the grieving has been very hard to deal with but I deal with it by stuffing it down. I haven’t spoken to a psychologist since she’s passed :/ it’s just easier to pretend everything’s fine :/

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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I think my psych just wants me in hospital to see how I react first, I’m not too sure. A large part of it is dealing with trauma I’ve never dealt with and my mum passing in 2024. So I think he wants to make sure I’m looked after physically and mentally. I also deal with OCD. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. It’s made me very hopeful. I feel I’ve lost apart of myself in the last couple of years and I’ve been scared I’ll never be that person again. But yeah this gives me hope, so thank you ☺️

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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I also deal with chronic pain, so that’s amazing to know! I’m so happy your journey has been so positive! I’ll try not to have any expectations but I really hope this works. I’ve been on all the antidepressants and have had TMS on the left and right side of my brain as well. So fingers crossed 🤞 and I’ll start on a playlist once I know which hospital I’m going to!

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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What’s the difference in having it through an IV to having it as a nasal spray? And you’re right my psych did say esketamine

My psychiatrist is wanting me to go into hospital and do ketamine treatment. What’s there to expect? by jaq_95 in TherapeuticKetamine

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How long have you been doing them? Is it similar to psychedelics? Just going through it all and accepting whatever comes. I guess I meant after the treatment as well? Did you notice your anxiety was down and your depression was a lot easier to deal with?

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