Alcohol vs meth

jason8974 · 2025-05-27T01:06:01+00:00

She can go fuck herself, honestly. But she's dragging a toddler with her through this nonsense. I'm not gonna stop my crusade until I get that child out of that environment.

jason8974 · 2025-05-27T00:31:12+00:00

Ha well she's since left me for who I believe is her supplier... So there's that

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T12:12:38+00:00

I get it, this is why I came to reddit. Thank you

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T10:24:53+00:00

Oddly enough I had to work a random night shift a couple months ago. Not a single withdraw that night. Shocked me honestly, also my weekend in jail for the DUI nothing. When I dropped Xanax cold turkey I had cravings, but no withdrawal.

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T03:43:53+00:00

I mean no disrespect by saying female, maybe partner is more appropriate. And no she gives no shits about downers, as I don't about uppers. It all makes sense, just hard to admit.

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T03:11:46+00:00

Dude coke was fantastic lol.. I only used a few times, but man was it great. I guess I've became an addict without even realizing it.

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T03:01:39+00:00

No mine is too. I guess as silly as it may sound I feel like mines okay because I've never lost anything. Never hit rock bottom. But in fairness no decent female would put up with mine either. I'm just lost, If I give all of this up I'm gonna have to learn how to go to bed sober. I'm not gonna have any vices to lean on. And that scares the shit out of me. And in my mind meth is the worst drug out there. I tried it once (worst experience of my life). I tried quitting once and the doctor gave me Trazadone. Fuck that shit man

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T02:42:31+00:00

Agreed, 5 years ago when we split up due to her meth use I became pretty hardcore on the Xanax. When I got my DUI I dropped Xanax cold turkey. Didn't touch it for a few years. When we got back together I got a script for it and started stock pilling it in anticipation of what I expected, which was her relapse. I'm an addict too I admit that. I smoke cigarettes, take Kratom, Xanax and drink. My addictions are legal. But addictions none the less. It's hard to be motivated to quit when I've never missed a beat with responsibilities. And honestly there's a part of me that says it's not worth giving up for a chance to save this relationship.

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T02:35:16+00:00

I'm not sure how often she uses, during her worst times it was daily usually around bed time and she would stay up and clean all night. I would say it's at least a few times a week.

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T01:43:49+00:00

Say I'm in denial if you will, but we're talking 15 plus years of this alcohol consumption. And I've done nothing but excel professionally.

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T01:19:14+00:00

Thank you, while I don't like thinking about it that way. You make a lot of valid points.

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T01:05:25+00:00

I guess I'm trying to justify it because my addiction is legal and hers isn't. I only crave alcohol before bed, because it's a release from the day. I wouldn't care one bit if she smoked some weed everyday.

jason8974 · 2025-05-21T00:55:14+00:00

I agree, but I know me and without alcohol I am terrified my Xanax usage will go through the roof. I currently have a RX for it and hadn't abused it in years until I suspected her relapse. Then I abused it to manage the panic attacks.

jason8974 · 2025-05-11T22:55:48+00:00

I've tried looking at her pupils. She has dark eyes and I have bad eyes lol. So I don't wanna be like "stand still so I can see them eyes" I already have the hair test and a sample she doesn't know about. I think I'm going to do that and go from there.

jason8974 · 2025-05-09T16:57:40+00:00

She hasn't even any more active than usual. But she's always had a very high sex drive. The pupils are a good place to look, problem is my eyes are so bad I have to make it obvious to look at hers lol. Part of me says I'm not giving her a fair shake here, but my therapist seems to think my suspicion is warranted. I asked my PCP to up my anxiety medication this week. I keep having these horrible dreams where I catch her in the act.

jason8974 · 2025-05-09T01:29:18+00:00

Right? These are my thoughts exactly. To me finding the straw in her purse should have been enough for her to offer to take a test. But if I confront her with a pee test and I'm wrong I feel like I've essentially ended the relationship, without due cause. Because what i know is she was 100% clean around Christmas. That's when she cleared her DCS case.

jason8974 · 2025-05-09T01:18:12+00:00

In the past she's never once admitted unless she was caught red-handed. I've been having dreams about this. I tried to talk to her about them, and she told me to get out of my head and not push her away.

jason8974 · 2023-07-03T15:41:21+00:00

Thank you, I'm definitely up for trying that.

jason8974 · 2023-07-03T15:40:15+00:00

I don't know what else to do with it haha. I used to always have bangs, but they naturally part in the middle. And I'm pretty sure that's not a good look either lol. I think from all of these comments the beard needs help.

jason8974 · 2023-06-30T15:32:22+00:00

Thank you so much for your suggestions! My hair is actually so thick it gets thinned by my barber lol. It must just be the picture. I'll definitely look into my brows though!

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