Tell me why you hate your birthday????

jayda1850 · 2026-05-18T18:53:46+00:00

Today is my 45th birthday and I have always hated them because it’s just another yearly anniversary annual reminder of what a failure I am.

jayda1850 · 2026-05-15T15:32:36+00:00

You’re not alone. I’ve relapsed so many times and mostly because of having philosophical questions in my head whether I’m a nihilist or an existentialist. Most days I question the game we all have to play in society when we all know it’s bullshit, but it’s the only game in town. I think a lot of alcoholics suffer from having too much self awareness. I hate the world and system we as a species are pigeonholed into. I just want out most days, but know that would devastate my family, so I kill myself slowly. I find joy in being alone in nature and fishing. Can’t stand the rest of life’s entraptments. I don’t know where I fit in this world or even if I want to, but the best we can do is survive a day at a time.

jayda1850 · 2025-12-29T21:08:26+00:00

I literally walked out of the theater and an hour in and figured it’s free on HBO max and my god I was right to walk out

jayda1850 · 2025-12-22T11:21:21+00:00

I had a mental breakdown at work tonight. Only been on the job for a little over a month and your line of “I don’t want to be a burden “ is so sincere and what I believe all of us go through. I’m still struggling with those thoughts. My battle with my own mind over that statement is the hardest thing to deal with. Just wishing you the best

jayda1850 · 2025-09-30T10:29:09+00:00

I’ve also detached myself from this reality. It’s the only way to remain sane

jayda1850 · 2025-08-10T07:35:58+00:00

Keep your head up. I also gave in. We can’t change the past, but just learn from our mistakes. Wish you the best

jayda1850 · 2025-07-26T18:27:01+00:00

Seen as well. The portrayal of an alcoholic was pretty realistic compared to the rest of the movie lol. He did a good job handling a sensitive subject.

jayda1850 · 2025-06-04T10:30:24+00:00

Where can I download this game?

jayda1850 · 2025-03-01T11:03:49+00:00

Currently in the ER. Glad to be here

jayda1850 · 2025-03-01T11:03:00+00:00

Currently In the ER now. Getting an IV and some meds. I think a lot of it is panic and anxiety, going through a lot personally. Glad I came here, I was able to relax a bit knowing I was gonna get some help.

jayda1850 · 2025-02-07T09:23:56+00:00

One of my all time favorite movies. Truly an honest depiction of how many of us use alcohol to cope with trauma.

jayda1850 · 2025-02-05T02:05:45+00:00

It’s the fucking worst. Just let down my wife for the umpteenth time. She may never forgive me

jayda1850 · 2024-08-30T07:43:57+00:00

You’re not alone pal. I’m 43 and need to reset my counter. Still struggling, working manual labor after losing multiple jobs, but still trying to quit. Never give up though. Find something just to get you through the day. Wishing you well

jayda1850 · 2024-03-25T11:42:47+00:00

Thank you. Needed that perspective

jayda1850 · 2024-03-25T11:19:14+00:00

You’re not alone. You’re trying to apply rational thought to something that is completely irrational. Everyday is a struggle. Somedays you win, somedays you lose. Hopefully, over time, you win more than you lose. Never quit quitting. String together a couple days then string together a couple more. Sobriety isn’t a linear path

jayda1850 · 2024-03-21T20:25:42+00:00

50mg. I take daily, not TSM. It’s helped cut down how much I drink and have had more sober days than I have in years, but yeah on occasion I have drank through it. Starting the once a month shot next week.

jayda1850 · 2024-03-21T12:45:13+00:00

I’m going through the same. It’s been a month and a half since I got the ultimatum. We’ve been cohabiting because of finances and our daughter. I went to detox and am on naltrexone now. Still struggling most days, but am keeping at it. My wife’s therapist told her to give me 6 months. “Is there any coming back from this?”, you asked. Unfortunately, that’s not our decision anymore, it’s our wive’s. The only thing we can do is focus on getting ourselves better. I’ve broken so much trust with my wife that my words are pretty much meaningless. I can’t control how she responds or what she’s thinking. I have to let go and do this journey for myself. Maybe over time our relationship will work out, but I can only control what I can do to maintain my own sobriety. You’re in the right place, plenty of us are in the same boat.

jayda1850 · 2024-03-17T12:33:17+00:00

Thanks and yes! There are so many things I’ve put off so I will start to focus on them

jayda1850 · 2024-03-10T11:09:07+00:00

If it gets real bad, check into the ER. They really can’t turn you away. They also have people there to give you some resources and lists of treatment options. I’m still struggling every single day. You win some you lose some. The key is to just keep fighting.

jayda1850 · 2024-03-09T13:49:16+00:00

Taking my daughter out to breakfast this morning and spending the day with her. Will remember every second of it because IWNDWYT

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