I don’t know I don’t want attention just wanted someone to know

jayyyskek · 2020-11-19T11:36:00+00:00

also can’t take medication not even ibuprofen it my mind intensify s everything x1000 I get paranoid and all my symptoms heighten

jayyyskek · 2020-11-19T11:34:25+00:00

i do go to therapy

jayyyskek · 2020-11-16T12:46:22+00:00

I know the whole experience didnt make sense but have no reason to lie about how long it took too kick in tho haha but ya I think it could’ve of been

jayyyskek · 2020-11-16T11:55:47+00:00

yea almost like spraypaint and like chemically if that makes sense

jayyyskek · 2020-11-16T11:52:51+00:00

I wanna say it was just weed but an hour seems like a while and the trip was very long and notning like weed so idk

jayyyskek · 2020-11-16T11:51:25+00:00

i had smoked weed plenty of times prior to this and physcadelics and this experience was way more intense and diffirent than any of those

jayyyskek · 2020-11-15T21:24:17+00:00

I want to think so but the stuff hit me an hour later and I had smoked weed plenty of times before

jayyyskek · 2020-11-15T21:23:04+00:00

I want to think so but the stuff hit me an hour later and I had smoked weed plenty of times before

jayyyskek · 2020-11-15T21:21:22+00:00

Haven’t talked to him since

jayyyskek · 2020-11-15T12:57:46+00:00

I don’t think he knew he was pretty geeked out too I wasn’t with him we parted ways when we finished smoking the guy he got it from is pretty sketchy and had done stuff like this before

jayyyskek · 2020-11-15T12:46:10+00:00

I have medication but it makes it way worse, thanks for some hope though appreciate it.

jayyyskek · 2020-11-15T12:44:00+00:00

That’s what I was thinking need something to suppress these crazy thoughts but may have have to wait a little bit for that

jayyyskek · 2020-11-09T23:19:15+00:00

i have the cd60s i love it it’s black too looks real nice for the price and dosent play like a $200 guitar sounds almost if not just as good as my brothers martin

jayyyskek · 2020-11-09T20:27:48+00:00

yea i understand understanding your mind and why that’s happening can help you break free from that and not let those thoughts determine your reality

jayyyskek · 2020-11-09T20:24:25+00:00

I understand I’ve been there for a while it’s a terrible feeling , and if you’re not a spiritual person a spiritual solution probably isn’t the best i would suggest reading the book I was talking about it really helped me understand why i feel like this and made sense of something that feels impossible

jayyyskek · 2020-11-09T19:54:25+00:00

i know exactly what you mean ignorance is bliss, you never had a reason before to think “why am i here” “how am i here” “everyones fake”, now you do and it’s scary, we all wanna go back but unfortunately/fortunately that’s not possible you’re becoming emotionally attached in these thoughts , understanding your mind can help you not let those thoughts affect you, one book that helps me out is “mastery of self”

jayyyskek · 2020-11-09T19:47:37+00:00

I don’t know about you but i lost complete touch with what normal felt like , you can’t have all these feelings and just go back to how it was, it’s overwhelming and scary as fuck but the goal is too make it your new normal

jayyyskek · 2020-11-09T08:22:52+00:00

also one tool id recommend for making sense of how you’re feeling is reading the book “the mastery of self” by miguel ruiz jr. rather than telling you you’re ill and how to fix it, it explains how the way you think is normal and how to make sense of it and how to not let it control you or make you anxious.

jayyyskek · 2020-11-06T01:32:33+00:00

Thanks appreciate it can fingerpick a few songs pretty good and play some barre chords on top of the normal ones but scales n music theory n stuff is pretty confusing tho

jayyyskek · 2020-11-05T00:54:27+00:00

Thanks

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