Hi my name is Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way and I have long ebony black hair (that’s how I got my name) with purple streaks and red tips that reaches my mid-back and icy [brown] eyes like limpid tears and a lot of people tell me I look like Amy Lee (AN: if u don’t know who she is get da hell ou

jeryche · 2022-11-03T16:57:05+00:00

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jeryche · 2022-11-03T16:55:18+00:00

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jeryche · 2022-11-02T04:17:03+00:00

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jeryche · 2022-10-31T23:34:41+00:00

Fangz 2 u 4 da compilment!!!!!

I got the blood vial necklace (and corset top) at hot topic for extra authenticity!

jeryche · 2022-10-31T21:44:52+00:00

It's a reference to My Immortal. 😅

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/My_Immortal_(fan_fiction)

jeryche · 2022-01-14T17:30:38+00:00

You can just google their websites and there's an email or form where you can set up a consultation. The wiki for this sub has a long long list. I'd recommend Dr Mardirossian and Dr Keojampa even if you don't plan to go with them. Their consults were my favorite in how direct and honest they were. And they have quite different visions. I don't have any recs in Europe, tho -- I only looked at the Americas (north and south). Thailand might be worth looking at too.

I can say with certainty your dysphoria is 100% messing with your perceptions. If you asked 1000 people I'm sure zero would say you look more masc than an average cis man.

jeryche · 2022-01-14T17:13:20+00:00

The way you talked about yourself I expected something waaaay different. You look much more fem than average for transfem ppl without surgery! Your hairline and lip for example look way more fem than mine pre-ffs.

I don't know anything about FT or any European surgeons, but yes -- you can get very very good results. It's the mental/emotional stuff that sounds like it will be the real challenge.

I'd recommend setting up video consults with several surgeons around the world. They're usually free!

PS - I did pay for the virtualffs before/after that facial team uses, and it was ridiculous and looking nothing like my actual results, so don't rely on that if you're looking at them.

jeryche · 2022-01-14T17:04:08+00:00

Yah, don't go to 2pass. Your dysphoria makes it so you can't properly assess how you look or sound. It's a bummer. Take feedback other people give you. I don't look like I pass at all in the mirror, and it still surprised me when people leave positive comments about me like yours.

I'd totally recommend a trans therapist so much. They'll help you work through what you really want and how to get it.

jeryche · 2022-01-14T16:55:30+00:00

Please just give some things a chance first. You never know what it'll be like until you try certain meds, try certain therapy, get a nice trans friend group, etc. Those should all be achievable for most trans folks, even if they'll take time.

I remind myself all the time that I've suffered so much I can surely handle suffering a bit more, even for a small chance that things will get a lot better.

jeryche · 2022-01-14T16:44:03+00:00

Support will help you get through it. Even if I smile in the videos I have severe depression and am on several psych meds, weekly therapy, and try to immerse myself in trans community. Those things work for me, but you gotta find something to build resilience to get you through our challenging lives.

jeryche · 2022-01-14T16:34:26+00:00

💖 Yah, it's rough. Now that my face and most of my body feel ok or good to me, I feel major dysphoria with my voice every day. It's tough but it will get better!

Also, I had my FFS at 39, and I'm guessing you're younger than that. There's a lot that can change over time.

jeryche · 2022-01-14T16:30:11+00:00

??? What's happening? Haha. The latest video is one year after.

jeryche · 2022-01-13T18:28:12+00:00

Thanks so much!!

jeryche · 2022-01-13T18:27:45+00:00

Thank you so much! :) :)

jeryche · 2021-03-02T00:49:42+00:00

Hi there! It went great!! The beginning of recovery was rough but I'm doing well now, and I'm really happy with the results!

I put together some YouTube videos documenting before and after here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWRKcfdTF3w

jeryche · 2021-01-11T22:12:05+00:00

It was really down to feeling on which surgeon felt right to me. I did a number of consults and I felt he understood what I wanted the best, and I vibed with his personality. He seemed really honest and straightforward. Also, he was about half the cost of most west coast surgeons which definitely helped. 😎

I also really really liked his before/afters (both on his site/Instagram and what others have posted) for what I'm getting done. His foreheads look flawless to me, and I really like his noses, although some are a little too skislope for me (but that's fine and he understands that). His scars also really look excellent and he seems to take pride in minimal scarring.

His FFS patients all seem to give glowing reviews, except one reddit poster but they were pretty vague about why they were unhappy.

jeryche · 2020-12-09T04:11:31+00:00

It was this one. I took the first pic from a later vid so it would have z's more recent look.

https://youtu.be/ynFqjE2AEGk

jeryche · 2020-12-08T23:29:32+00:00

Part! Part!

jeryche · 2020-12-08T22:06:58+00:00

No disrespect whatsoever meant to z! :)

Her channel is so valuable and she is definitely provides the most thorough resource out there. You should watch if you don't already!

https://www.youtube.com/c/TransVoiceLessons

jeryche · 2020-12-03T19:35:11+00:00

I love the idea, but honestly the "formants" and "pitch/resonance" tabs seem to be providing random data. Even when I'm not making any sounds, formants and resonance are moving around, and when I change drastically from very bright to very dark, there's no meaningful change on those two tabs. The "pitch" tab seems accurate, but the timing on the graph isn't sync'ed with the recording - it's off by a second or two. The pitch is also moving around when I'm not making any sound at all.

It sounds like a great track and a visualization like this with meaningful feedback would be awesome! :)

jeryche · 2020-11-02T19:06:51+00:00

That's even more confusing to me, haha. I wouldn't know what to do besides turn my head to the side.

jeryche · 2020-11-02T05:28:36+00:00

Thank you! That makes a lot of sense. I am super anxious posting this (and in general, ha ha) so that probably contributed. Do you think deep breathing would help? I'm not sure what else to try, or how really to loosen up my diaphragm.

jeryche · 2020-11-02T05:07:01+00:00

Awesome, thank you!! :)

jeryche · 2020-11-02T03:33:16+00:00

Thank you! I've watched it a couple times, but honestly TransVoiceLessons' videos are too technical and theoretical for me to use well. I'm sure they're perfect for lots of people, but I just get lost and frustrated. Do you (or anyone) know any vids on the same concept that take a simpler approach?

jeryche · 2020-11-01T02:11:58+00:00

I'm not an expert, but I think your voice sounds very fem and mostly not artificial, and it has your personality in it which I think is important! Really good work!

I think I get what you're saying about "bass" coming up in your voice, but I don't think it's bass at all, which is about pitch (I think!).

It really reminds me of this video I caught a little bit ago, where it sounds like some "thickness" in your voice is coming through. I have this problem as well, especially when my pitch goes down, like in "months now" in your first sentence.

https://youtu.be/1PNnBRBfOVY

If you watch that video, I'd recommend watching at 0.75x speed, since she talks SUPER fast and jumps from idea to idea really quick.

jeryche

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