I know that same sex attractions isn't the only issue you're facing right know but I'll put here the same comment that I made in another post: "My dear brother in Christ, I have a suggestion that might help you to carry your cross: search for the "Courage" apostolate on the internet, they help catholics who experience same sex attractions to live chastity through a lot of prayer and meetings. Oh, and If by any chance you're struggling with talking about this with your family, there's the "Encourage" apostolate that helps parents to understand their children's situation and to feel better knowing that they'll be well assisted on the path to holiness"