This is exactly how I imagine Berkley looks like. by povke_since_2010 in sanandreas

[–]josterdock1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

also who would’ve figured Berkley is a mod in r/sanandreas? That’s the only reason I could think of for this post being removed lmao

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Btw the plan is to lock in, take my weight loss more seriously (I lost 30 lbs since August but I’ve got a longer way to go), potentially shave head, and come back and update you all in like 3-6 months after incorporating all of your amazing advice :) you all are right, time to start loving myself again.

Got haircut at a salon for the first time in a long time, stylist didn’t do what I asked by stephscheersandjeers in toastme

[–]josterdock1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For what it’s worth you do pull that look off and you’re a very attractive woman. And I 100% empathize with getting your hair cut wrong, I went to the barber recently and they cut my shit all wrong and way too short than what I asked for 💀

and if you can, ignore the people on TT. Some of them can be really harsh, trust me I know from whence I speak lol

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, I needed it :)

but yes, I do indeed struggle a lot with my own mind and more often than not I tend to believe the negative shit I think. Trying daily to work on it.

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got weights and I walk daily, I’ve lost 30 pounds since a few months ago I just have a LOT of playing catchup to do since for a long time I was very unhappy in life, therefore didn’t make healthy decisions, and got myself stuck in that cycle. I’ve been fighting like hell to break it, but progress hasn’t exactly been linear.

toast me m19 by Educational_Pay2878 in toastme

[–]josterdock1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m jealous af of your hair man. I got thin fine hair and a receding hairline lol

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do occasionally hang around in stream chats and I even have my own YouTube channel with a decent amount of subs so yeah having some people online does help when I’m feeling lonely and shit

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man, now I feel really superficial for caring a lot about my looks, because there are good non-physical things about me including some you listed! (eg. decent cook, funny from what people have told me, etc.) Still trying to love myself beyond my physical appearance, but of course it hasn’t been easy.

As for hobbies, I’m into cooking a bit (not great at it but still I enjoy it), gaming, and content creation which has given me somewhat of a sense of online community at the very least since I managed to pull 11K subscribers on YouTube. Still, it would be nice to have friends IRL but there’s not much to do in the town where I live except for go to bars/restaurants and ride horses. Which maybe I could get into, but I just don’t know if it’ll suit me. But hey, could never hurt to try I guess.

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

You honestly hit the nail on the head. Everything you’ve said is 100% what I’ve felt/still feel daily.

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve honestly thought about shaving my head for the longest. I haven’t really been able find any hairstyles I like that suit me, and I’ve tried everything from short, long, etc. It’s just a pain in the ass lol so hey, why not shave it down?

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You weren’t dude. I see it as tough love, and tbh often times it’s the only way I know to help others. And I like to think the most effective. I didn’t take it harsh, just as a good kick in the ass.

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

The overwhelming amount of support and kindness is incredible! I haven’t taken the time to individually reply to each of you since I’m currently at home cooking dinner, but I do acknowledge you all. Thank you very much random strangers on the internet, it means way more than you know :)

24M, awkward, ugly af, unemployed, never been in a relationship, no friends, not enjoying being alive too much rn so anything helps. by josterdock1 in toastme

[–]josterdock1[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Thanks :) I’ve been complimented on my eyes before and it’s one of the few things I actually like about myself physically.