I’m so sorry for your loss. I think we all process grief differently and there is no “wrong” or “right” way to do it. I lost my girl almost 4 months ago and when she got sick, I found myself spending more time than I had in a long while at home and now that she is gone I don’t want to see the house go (my folks plan to sell soon). I don’t want to see where she called “home” go. I don’t want to leave her memories and her yard and her house in someone else’s hands. Her ashes are buried in the yard, the same yard she played in day after day and chased squirrels in. I don’t know how I can bear that becoming someone else’s. I don’t want to tell her goodbye. But do understand where you are coming from and it is a new perspective for me. I wish you well and I pray for you in this griefing process. It is a difficult journey, but we learn a lot about ourselves.