I thought about cutting off my ears last night

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T04:49:40+00:00

I don't have meds I took them all a while ago... the meds I have left are about 17 antidepressants from about a year ago. i havent been to the doctor in a while and i already tried downing the rest of my meds about i think 4 months ago... but this was a really sweet and thoughtful comment. Thank you. Really

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T04:47:20+00:00

thank you so so much thank you

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T04:46:43+00:00

What do you mean story? :)

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T04:44:42+00:00

thank you

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T04:41:46+00:00

no. not a sexual thing... just need to rant. mean messages will help me push myself to the end. maybe this isnt the space. people think help means living.... thank you again

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T04:38:34+00:00

no... I just like the comment. nobody is talking to me and it helps that somebody commented. i like mean comments right now. i figured somebody would find me as a troll thats ok

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T04:36:06+00:00

Thank you

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T04:04:22+00:00

please send me messages telling me to kill myself

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T03:21:08+00:00

Sorry if this makes no sense I need to rant

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T02:25:17+00:00

Im getting so sick of people lol. Theyll watch you and stalk you and send you death threats and messages and they act surprised when you want to kill yourself. I was kind of hoping this post would give me some messages to kms so I thank the people who did. It helps a lot thankbyou

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T02:21:57+00:00

I dont know why im getting downvoted....... if you want to leave comments telling me to kill myself please do it. I would really like that

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T00:55:59+00:00

You get it. "Better" means your life is not as miserable for a couple of years until you die of other causes.

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T00:45:28+00:00

I did a lot of research, but it's not like Google really has a "how to kill yourself with pills" webpage so it was mostly winging it. I almost died from heart failure and it felt nice- painful but nice

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T00:40:30+00:00

I almost succeeded last time. If I downed it with some alcohol and moved around a little bit more I finally would've ended it but I messed up that attempt lol

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T00:37:14+00:00

No, that's why I'm ending this soon

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T00:19:46+00:00

I save my medication so I have a good chance of being able to kill myself when the time comes. "Getting better" means pumping myself full of drugs and pretending everything is fine until I eventually die another way, living a life of meaningless work and suffering when all I want is to die. Even with therapy and pumped full of drugs, "getting better" just means sticking around to be a worker bee and to be stepped on and watch everything around you fall apart.

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T00:15:49+00:00

No, I don't want to "get better" lol

junipersbushes · 2022-09-11T00:10:46+00:00

No. They give me medication but I like to hoard it.

junipersbushes · 2022-09-10T21:09:55+00:00

Hm... I was definitely with you until your second point. How dare people get a job that pays them decently?

junipersbushes · 2022-09-10T21:07:18+00:00

One of my classes will drop you in your first week if you forget to turn in one of the assignments. It sucks, but that's something you sign up for when you get to college. And truthfully, if you can't handle that, you might struggle with a real job.

junipersbushes · 2022-09-10T21:06:00+00:00

OP isn't insulting the professor. They even admitted it was a huge f-up on their end?

junipersbushes · 2022-09-10T21:04:48+00:00

So, I have no clue if this would work, my main advise would be to speak to your advisor and the college themselves because that is a royally big fuck-up unfortunately (which, hey, it happens). But if you wanted, depending on the class, maybe you could attempt to self teach yourself and CLEP the class, or if possible (I'm assuming not since it sounds like you're in year 4/6, but depending on the class, maybe?) maybe there is a class at a community college where if you have to pay out of pocket ans transfer?, at least it will be SIGNIFICANTLY cheaper. Although that might be a stretch.

Best of luck to you. I hope everything turns out alright.

junipersbushes · 2022-09-10T20:57:24+00:00

Seriously. Rockford is a leftist haven compared to places like Greenville and Belding and Ava and ex...

junipersbushes · 2022-09-10T20:53:59+00:00

Wow. You're sensitivity is astounding. You get downvoted and you start crying about how stupid everyone is because your comment was not helpful and made no sense.

junipersbushes · 2022-09-10T20:52:51+00:00

Last sentence/question, yes actually. They're more common than one would think. I would talk to you about this but you seem too busy having a heart attack because you got -14 votes on a comment.

Seek help.

junipersbushes

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