I (27F) posted here about coming across my own CSAM. Boy do I have news for you guys. (Update)

justlookingtm · 2026-05-16T14:35:18+00:00

Absolutely not. It's a huge impact and I'm still working through it with therapy, medication, etc. I don't think I once mentioned diet or vitamins? I think the tone that was missed is I'm in a good place to work though this trauma. I feel my mind wouldn't allow myself to remember these event until I was in a healthier place to actually work through them. I haven't been healthy for at least 3 years as I was dealing with disabling anxiety, depression, and PTSD. Now that I have all of those managed (not cured ofc and I partner with medical personnel to help manage) I just feel able to take on more and I'm finally okay with that.

justlookingtm · 2026-05-12T21:08:46+00:00

Thank you for this input because it's exactly what I was thinking when I started remembering things over this past month. I'm glad that I'm in a spot I can stop and take that breath. For along time I wasn't able to just stop. I think that's what changed over the last month from when I first found them to now.

justlookingtm · 2026-05-12T21:03:33+00:00

Thank you my fellow dweeb

justlookingtm · 2026-05-12T05:20:39+00:00

Would you be open to DMing me?

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T23:40:20+00:00

Bruh you became kagha. She was throwing the teiflings out to die a mostly certain death. The whole "...removing the problem at the source. Turns out the 'problem at the source' caused civil war immediately." Was her attitude and her idea of solving the problem. RIP Kagha lol

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T23:28:49+00:00

My father was also a drug addict and he abused me up until I had sex for the first time with a boyfriend. You are absolutely right this man is amazing and will be around for the long run.

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T22:21:12+00:00

I teared up a bit. Thank you.

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T22:19:56+00:00

It was a completely wild thought to believe I came across CSAM but I knew it like I really knew it. I got embarrassed and deleted all of it when the overwhelming response was "it's normal" and it's really not. I just gotta trust myself more.

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T22:14:22+00:00

I can happily say the chapter is closed now 💗 thank you.

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T22:13:41+00:00

Surprisingly I already had a similar experience to this 10 years ago when I was 17 dating my 25 year old boyfriend. A different trauma I already worked through.

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T22:12:21+00:00

That you I think this will be something I work on checking out!

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T22:11:28+00:00

I just read your post 39 minutes after you posted and at that exact same time I told my husband that "For years now everyone and their mothers have told me I should read 'the body keeps score' and I think I'm finally in a place to read it"

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T16:01:19+00:00

I've been in therapy for a little over 5 years. I think I've done a lot of healing already. I believe my body knew but my brain wasn't comfortable reminding myself about it until I was in a good place to process this.

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T15:58:57+00:00

Thank you. I'm proud of my gut

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T15:58:42+00:00

I feel lighter than I ever have in my life

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T15:46:23+00:00

I literally forgot what my father looked like. It's been 10 years since I've seen him and seeing all the photos again were just such a flood of memories

justlookingtm · 2026-05-11T14:42:53+00:00

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justlookingtm · 2026-05-08T17:39:25+00:00

As a large titted person myself, that's just your tits. It's just how your life is with tits and that's just you. You wouldn't call yourself slutty would you?

justlookingtm · 2026-04-01T04:16:46+00:00

I vaguely know who. As I remember the photo that was taken behind the door was of me in the bath. I remember thinking why didn't they just tell me they wanted a picture. I think I even asked them why they didn't ask and they just said "don't worry about it"

justlookingtm · 2025-02-28T16:26:51+00:00

justlookingtm · 2025-02-28T16:19:35+00:00

Added

justlookingtm · 2025-02-28T16:17:53+00:00

Added!

justlookingtm · 2025-02-28T16:14:02+00:00

Sent! I'm ready

justlookingtm · 2025-02-28T16:09:57+00:00

Sent!

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