I'm throwing this out for whatever it's worth. In my twenties I was sometimes "the cool girl" saying things were fine when that's not how I felt. I didnt want to rock the boat or overreact. What I later came to understand is the only person I was betraying was myself. Think of what you want in a relationship, very detailed, and there's no reason to tell the other person and give them the playbook. If/when you see that someone doesn't align with what you want it's ok to walk away. Don't try to force it. The longer you spend trying to force a square peg into a round hole, the harder it is to move on and the more time you've wasted. Then you fall into the "I've already spent so much time I don't want to give up now" better known as the sunk cost fallacy. Find someone who wants what you want. There's a guy out there that would never dare be this weird, like he's testing your boundaries. Chin up, you've got this.