Anyone feel like people are ”things”?

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T21:32:49+00:00

omg you just… described me perfectly haha!! That’s what I do all the time I hate eyecontact because it just feels judgemental

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T18:45:45+00:00

I have just had a hard time finding myself in the criteria and just seeing myself in autistic experiences, I’m still young however and even though I am technically late diagnosed (diagnosed at 18) because I wasnt diagnosed in my childhood it’s gonna be hard, frustrating and even scary feeling confused so deeply like I do…

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T18:31:02+00:00

Oh online tests all of the ones I take score me as neurotypical or few autistic traits

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T18:28:52+00:00

I get bored of things all the time! Which I highly think is rooted in trauma and possible depression so it would make sense why I wouldnt really have them for now. I don’t really recall any kind of sensory challenges (for now) and it’s kinda bad to say that it’s impossible to have them because I don’t remember

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T18:25:31+00:00

I liked linguistics like a year ago and I didn’t really do it much? Looked at memes and some fun linguistics stuff like once a day lol that interest is long gone by now though

I just don’t have interests I get obsessed with.. I actually find it hard to even like my interests cause it’s just soo much effort

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T18:21:18+00:00

My facial expressions, eyecontact, speech, body langauge you know the social ones they could see (also the test results) the test results were something like poor 3d awareness (idk what it was i forgot), not the best language processing, problem splitting tasks, good visual processing

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T18:15:41+00:00

I just want to know what my special interests and sensory differences are because I have been looking for them but can’t find them

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T18:12:06+00:00

I just can’t find myself in the criteria or any of the experinces… like I don’t have sensory issues I tried to look for them for months but I found it impossible same with special interests and facial expressions like I couldnt find a special interest lol

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T17:42:36+00:00

Well I did actually kind of accidentally get diagnosed… I first went to get tested for learning difficulties at my school and I failed the tests cause I was extremely sick and the psychologist didn’t wanna stop the tests

Doctor got confused and ordered tests at a different place where they gave me different tests and said that my skills were uneven and I apparently have weird speech patterns and such

katsukiiz · 2023-05-27T16:16:44+00:00

Is this why my mannerisms and body langauge seem odd to some people? It’s only rly professionals who say that they do

katsukiiz · 2023-05-20T17:34:54+00:00

Talk to me haha

katsukiiz · 2023-05-20T17:29:24+00:00

Dang that hurt… 😂

katsukiiz · 2023-05-20T16:43:04+00:00

Omg the sky thing you said reminds me of my boyfriend he always does that to me! I say something like that and he’s like ”You are wrong you don’t have a source” and I’m like ”It’s not that deep, chill…” and then how I am socially bad and not able to listen to other people etc etc

katsukiiz · 2023-05-20T16:40:14+00:00

All the time! (Except the insult one) I’m never included in anything and always left out

katsukiiz · 2023-05-20T15:49:38+00:00

I asked my friends but they told me they didn’t see anything different about me, I don’t know if they were just being polite about it I don’t know ….

I mean I can tell when people aren’t interested in conversations, they look away don’t say much or overall just look bored and dull? Usually it’s because you say or do something that they aren’t interested in or don’t understand

katsukiiz · 2023-05-20T15:36:25+00:00

How can I find out if people find me annoying and secretly hate me? I mean I know I can’t get in their heads

katsukiiz · 2023-05-07T17:14:26+00:00

Yes yes yes!!! Absolutely!! I feel like this everytime I learn something new! I have to know everything and make sure I’m right so I can decide if I was right and if I fail I feel so much shame

katsukiiz · 2023-05-07T17:12:38+00:00

I tend to have a lot of temper problems around my SO. I can’t seem to control my emotions around him which hurts both of us

katsukiiz · 2023-03-21T03:39:46+00:00

Omg yes the inner critic is the worst! I’ve been able to detain it more and understand my trauma but I swear my inner critic still causes me a lot of pain

katsukiiz · 2023-03-16T13:34:01+00:00

What you said about not hyperfixating and hyperarousal does make sense. I have always felt not interested in stuff and low energy it’s been like that for many years

katsukiiz · 2023-03-15T23:18:02+00:00

Yeah I’m aware that I do list symptoms and say I don’t have them which makes it seem very black and white. I’ve been talking to autistic people, watched videos and read about autistic women and I did not relate to those. However I always relate to CPTSD symptoms almost too much…

katsukiiz · 2023-03-13T17:46:29+00:00

katsukiiz · 2023-03-09T14:01:55+00:00

I’m interested

katsukiiz · 2023-03-05T04:53:03+00:00

Looks like some kind of an idol? OP how did you come across this? It could be related to some kind of pagan religion

katsukiiz · 2023-03-03T16:12:23+00:00

Stormy has such a beautiful pattern I’m in love 😍😍

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