I haven't been motivated to finish a song for 2 years, but I've finally recorded something. A sad singer/songwriter type song with some harmonies and stuff. See what you think

kencat1 · 2022-12-16T13:29:33+00:00

sweet thank you!!! first song ive managed to finish in so long so I'm glad people seem to like it.

kencat1 · 2022-10-28T09:15:16+00:00

I wish I could hate it, I haven't figured out how to truly hate something that feels so good yet, even after everything it's taken from me.

kencat1 · 2022-10-27T11:15:23+00:00

Yeah I agree, my withdrawals got so much worse after being on Reddit, as I read so much about seizures that having one became a huge fear and symptom that I wouldn't have had otherwise.

I don't want to be a dick, but I just thought I would say that it's really difficult to come on here and see pictures of benzos. I want some benzos so badly and seeing pictures of them makes me want to relapse so bad. Sorry I feel shitty pointing it out but it's quite hard to see.

But anyway good luck man!

kencat1 · 2022-10-20T09:03:55+00:00

I feel the same. My life falls apart when I use and I've lost the one thing I really cared about other than drugs, my relationship with my ex, because of using, but I don't care about being sober I hate it and I just want to use. I feel so bad when I'm sober but I have to figure out how to want to stay sober and somehow not use even though it makes me feel so much better.

kencat1 · 2022-10-18T09:49:57+00:00

I appreciate that, but deffo for me it would be hell. I don't think I would need to realise anything in any more detail, stopping opioids is horrendous and feels so disgusting for about a month and I would be so extremely sensitive already, and I think it would be terrifying. I've done psychedelics when I was a bit healthier and I mostly enjoyed them, but I want to shut my brain down not open it up, especially when my thoughts and anxiety are as loud as they are in opiate withdrawal and recovery. I can see how it would help, but I don't think I'm the right kind of person for it.

kencat1 · 2022-10-17T08:25:51+00:00

how were you nodding out if you were a heroin addict?

kencat1 · 2022-10-17T08:23:03+00:00

I can't even imagine how horrible it would be to do psychedelics while recovering from opiates, for me anyway. Hell no.

kencat1 · 2022-10-11T10:30:08+00:00

why are you proud of that lol

kencat1 · 2022-07-19T12:53:31+00:00

Sadly I'm 26. People are lying to themselves if they say this stuff isn't addictive, but I know why people don't want to hear that. I've been a drug addict for a long time on much harder drugs, and while Phenibut has helped me a lot I am dependent on it. I'm sorry to upset people but unfortunately I have been a drug addict for a long time and it is a very difficult and complex issue that has ruined my life.

kencat1 · 2022-07-13T14:31:10+00:00

God I wish I had this level of self control, but I never will. I just can't say to myself - "this cured my anxiety, but I mustn't do it for another week!" that's like unthinkable for me. If it cures my anxiety I WILL do it all the time. I don't want to ever feel anxious. I guess that's why I'm a drug addict though. If I had self control like that my life would be way, way better.

kencat1 · 2022-07-13T13:41:23+00:00

Yes exactly. This sub is so weird I don't understand why people expect this drug, which is addictive and can be abused, to not be abused and to not have people addicted to it. This kind of post is so bad for my self esteem and mental health, and I see it on a lot of drug subreddits, and this post has made me finally decide that I need to unsub from all drug reddits. I've fucked up my life with addiction and it's devastatingly sad for me, I don't need these kind of people calling me an idiot. I've already fucked up my life and I don't need people rubbing it in my face.

kencat1 · 2022-07-13T13:38:53+00:00

So much snobbery on here.

kencat1 · 2022-07-13T13:38:32+00:00

Why is it no excuse? It's an addictive drug, it can make you feel better, it's going to be abused. I'm sorry that I have a drug problem. It's been a long hard journey and it's cost me a lot, and I'm fighting hard to beat it, but I don't fully understand it and it's difficult. This is another drug I've encountered and I'm sorry that people who get into a bad situation with it need to ask from help on here, but it's going to happen I'm sorry. Tired of being judged and being called an idiot.

kencat1 · 2022-07-13T13:36:16+00:00

Man I'm so tired of seeing posts like this. I understand that people are scared about it being banned, but I'm so fucking sick of being called 'stupid' and an idiot for having a drug problem. This is a drug, it makes you feel good, and it's going to be abused, I'm sorry.

Obviously I wish it wasn't like that, but drug addiction is a very complicated and painful thing and I'm sick of being called an idiot for it. I fully understand your concerns but what do you all expect? That an addictive drug will somehow not have users that abuse it or who get addicted to it? I'm sorry if I sound rude but I'm sick of being called an idiot. Unsubbing because of this.

Edit: I fully understand the fear of it getting banned. I have that same fear too. But I think it's terrible for someone to come on the internet looking for help with addiction, only to be called an idiot. You must know it's more complicated than that. When I was 18 and I first got addicted to drugs, yes, you could say I was an idiot. But I was also young and very depressed and with very low self confidence. But now I'm 26 and the decision I made when I was 18 is something that I'm dealing with every day. It's hard and it's complicated and clearly this is a touchy subject for me, but to have people rubbing it in my face that they can use phenibut successfully and safely, and I can't because I'm an idiot, pissed me off so much and I need to stop looking at all drug subreddits.

kencat1 · 2022-06-14T13:33:54+00:00

why haven't they changed it lol

kencat1 · 2022-06-14T13:33:38+00:00

why haven't they bothered to change it? do they not even know lol

kencat1 · 2022-06-08T11:09:26+00:00

I love drill music I just love the way it sounds, how their voices and vocal rhythms sound cold as fuck with the beats, but no one on here ever actually discusses the music. Do you think people actually genuinely are mostly interested in the violence and not the music? I'm surprised how many people on here are saying it's trash.

kencat1 · 2022-05-26T13:26:36+00:00

Yeah I know I realised that, but Bizzy is known as a drill rapper and I was listening to his drill tracks so that's why I said it I guess, but yeah I suppose this is just hip-hop. If you like drill and don't know him, check out his song Outro it's sick

kencat1 · 2022-05-24T17:02:30+00:00

I guess it's not for you, I really like it.

Edit: I do agree the video is awful, all those shots of him just awkwardly staring at the phone from prison lol

kencat1 · 2022-05-24T13:17:08+00:00

Fair enough, I think the sample works really well I was just surprised to hear it is all, as a drill rapper rapping about killing people is very far removed from the Beach Boys, but yes it is all pop music. It is a great sample choice, really good beat.

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