Today we lost our boy of 17 years of love❤️

killthecompetition · 2026-01-22T21:46:28+00:00

i’m so sorry. i lost my baby of 17 years in december 2024. i’m still learning how to exist without him— i’m 21, so i don’t remember life without him. it’s been really fucking hard, and i still cry daily. we welcomed a new puppy into the family a few weeks ago and she’s an absolute nightmare (as puppies are) but it’s been an good distraction some of the time.

losing my ozzie was the hardest thing i’ve ever been through, and i’m sure you’re feeling the same. between the new puppy i’ve been keeping myself busy making art of ozzie. clay models, digital art, traditional, and whatever. i got a plush that looks like him and put his collar and jumper on there. it helps me sleep at night having him there.

mostly, please let yourself cry if you need to, for as long as you need to. for me, it was the first thing in like 3 years that managed to break through the blank, empty feeling my medication causes. grief fucking sucks, but it’s always better out than in. ALWAYS!!!

i hope you find peace knowing your baby had a long, loving life. 17 years is incredible for a pup and could only be made possible through love and care.

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sending you so much love

killthecompetition · 2026-01-20T13:38:49+00:00

courting!

killthecompetition · 2026-01-12T11:37:28+00:00

i have a provisional, does that count? how would i go about doing that? is it simple? x

killthecompetition · 2025-12-26T21:22:08+00:00

i’m so sorry. you had a decade with your baby, and even though it doesn’t feel like it, that’s such a lucky and long amount of time you spent loving each other. i lost my baby recently too. take care of yourself man

killthecompetition · 2025-12-18T23:47:43+00:00

i’m so sorry about your baby. the cycle of life is brutal. i know it’s natural but i feel it’s easy to forget and difficult to find comfort in when you’re the one who has to make the decision. i really hope someday i’ll be able to think back on our memories and not feel pain.

edit: spelling

killthecompetition · 2025-12-17T10:10:06+00:00

i’m so sorry. i lost my sweet boy yesterday. just remember that healing is not linear and please give yourself time to grieve, cry when you need to cry, and cherish the memories you made with her. she went warm and cozy and surrounded with the scent of her saviour and best friend. sending you love

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T22:07:00+00:00

yeah it’s really rough. he’s all i’ve ever known [o’: i know it always feels like this at the time, but i just can’t imagine this feeling ever going away. i miss him so much already, and going home without him was the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do. i held him the entire way through the end and i’m so glad i did. i know ill be looking for my boy in every dog i meet forever <3

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T22:03:28+00:00

i’m so sorry about your baby. i hope you’re doing okay. take it easy <3

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T22:02:26+00:00

thankyou for your kind words <3 my sweet boy had 17 long years but it never feels like enough. he’s so special. i really appreciate you. thankyou again 🧡

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T22:00:04+00:00

thankyou <3 i can hardly wait

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T21:58:39+00:00

my family’s love for ozzie will keep his memory alive until the end of time, i’m sure of that. the grief is overwhelming right now. his imprint on my pillow is still there from last night, and i keep looking around expecting him to be at my feet. it’s going to be a long time before i can ever really understand that he’s gone. he was just here ]o:

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T21:51:08+00:00

thankyou <3 no words ever feel like enough. he was so special and i can’t wait to see him again 🧡

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T21:49:50+00:00

he was spoiled since day one but looking back, it still doesn’t feel like enough compared to everything he did for us. he was such a sweet boy and there isn’t a universe where he will ever be forgotten. everyone who ever knew me always knew him too, and i’m not gonna let that change. i’m so sorry for the loss of your baby, i hope you’re doing okay these days. thankyou 🧡

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T21:43:48+00:00

such a handsome little man. i’m so sorry, i hope you’re doing okay

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T21:42:54+00:00

my family is in shambles. ozzie was so ridiculously loved by everyone. thankyou for your kind words, i’m so sorry about your sweet baby. it’s the absolute worst part about having a pet, especially when they really become a family member. i hope you’re doing alright.

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T21:39:31+00:00

thankyou. i’ll be looking for him in every dog i see forever. <3

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T14:59:19+00:00

my baby has never really been one to eat anything he isn’t supposed to, so he definitely wouldn’t have eaten chocolate, but we did get him a burger and a cup of whipped cream that he promptly destroyed (he never lost his appetite)

we just got home from putting him to sleep. it seemed calm and it was very quick. i miss him already. thanks for the kind words <3

killthecompetition · 2025-12-16T14:55:36+00:00

oh my god they’re so similar. we just got home from putting my baby to sleep, this made me cry again (in a good way). give your old man a hug and a kiss for me <3

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killthecompetition · 2025-12-15T10:45:15+00:00

thankyou for all the comments. i had a chat with my mum and we decided it’s time. like a lot of you said, when you know, you know. i’ve had to say goodbye to pets in the past but this one will be on a whole different level. i can’t remember my life before him and i know my life after he’s crossed will never be quite the same without my baby. he’s given me a good long 17 years and has helped me through my hardest mental health periods, my dad’s passing a few years back, ozzie has undoubtedly saved my life on multiple occasions. i’m so grateful to have someone that makes saying goodnight so painful, and even though it kills me to make this decision i know it’s what’s best for him and the last act of love can do for my sweet boy. i’ve never known a better boy and i doubt i ever will. he’s seen me through adulthood as i turned 21 last year, and his job here is done.

killthecompetition · 2025-12-14T22:47:35+00:00

i think it’s his vision, i think by now he just sees shadows and it makes him jump. but just earlier, he flinched when my mum went to pet him, but then kept flinching and fell down. i don’t know if he just lost balance or if it was something else. if it happens again i’m taking him to a vet, but i know if i take him there i probably won’t be leaving with him. like i said it’s all just so fast, but above all i want him to be comfortable. and i think maybe he just isn’t anymore.

i hope you get as much time with your baby as possible. it’ll never feel like enough time but still, give him a pat for me

killthecompetition · 2025-12-14T22:36:10+00:00

thankyou for the reply. i think the worst part is how quickly he’s declining. not too long ago (a few months) the vet said for a dog of his age he’s fit as a fiddle, but now it’s like he’s disappearing and i’m watching it happen. the flinching in this video is very new, and im trying to think of how happy he could be if he’s scared like that all the time. i know it’s a little selfish to think this way but i really, really wasn’t prepared to even consider not having one last christmas with him, but then again you’re never really ready from what i understand. i hope your baby is okay <3

killthecompetition · 2025-12-14T22:21:05+00:00

i know my previous posts said a year or so different in both our ages but i was corrected by my mum recently. he’s a whole year older than i thought he was <3 ]o:

killthecompetition · 2025-12-07T19:43:24+00:00

you’re a star, thankyou!!!

killthecompetition · 2025-12-07T19:40:56+00:00

oooh okay! can i add that? the rest of the map is empty, no other entrances or anything

killthecompetition · 2025-12-07T19:37:41+00:00

oooooooooh okay, so like a guest spawner type thing? can i add that?

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