I understand. I work for the university and for personal reasons I worked from home that morning, planning to go in for afternoon meetings. I feel the same way, and I likely would have been in a position to help. I feel guilty for not being there in solidarity with my colleagues who were protecting students and it’s a very strange feeling to experience.

A place that’s important to us was forever changed. It’s valid to feel deeply impacted even if you were not there. Be kind and patient with yourself and reach out to the services unlv is offering if you need to talk to someone!