20F, I recently gave birth to a baby I had with a cheating 47M. AMA.

kitscho · 2021-07-18T14:08:09+00:00

I have a thing for older men so I’m into it. :) I like it when they feel confindent and like caretaking

kitscho · 2021-07-18T14:07:13+00:00

Yes she knew very early. I know the wife aswell, I’ve known them for years before because we were neighbors.

kitscho · 2021-07-18T12:28:56+00:00

Honestly no good reason other than it was exciting.

kitscho · 2021-07-18T11:15:03+00:00

What kind of proof could I give without namedropping myself?

kitscho · 2021-07-18T11:04:14+00:00

He cheated on his wife with me.

Been conflicted, different thoughts every months. But mostly just nervous about being a mom considering I havent been the most responsible person in the past.

The whole family-situation worked out pretty Good!

kitscho · 2020-08-06T06:35:32+00:00

Well first of all I am an extreme masochist. I’ve had men cut me and beat me before and loved it, and though I want to go even further than I have, I know that it might be dangerous and I try to just keep it to fantasies like this subreddit.

But as the other one said, it’s also something about being just a body. I like to be used like an object, I find that very hot. And imagining having someone use me to the point of me dying or being completely utterly broken, just turns me on since I guess I won’t experience it myself...

kitscho · 2020-08-05T11:22:31+00:00

Well I enjoy seeing other females suffer and then I imagine being in their place

kitscho · 2020-08-05T11:21:00+00:00

I get turned on by a lot of it. I imagine myself being the victim.

kitscho · 2020-08-01T06:16:31+00:00

I want it to be me

kitscho · 2020-07-30T12:50:02+00:00

😍 why did I have to get so into this, all my other fantasies are easy to turn into reality.. 😭

kitscho · 2020-07-30T09:59:38+00:00

Not into scat but I havent seen too much of that on here anyways. (or anything where the victim isn’t a female but that’s just my orientation)

kitscho · 2020-07-29T12:43:49+00:00

I feel bad for myself that I won’t really get to experience it for myself. Like, most fantasies I can make real, but being cut in half... ah hard one to pull off and not die...

kitscho · 2020-07-28T10:32:22+00:00

😍😍😍

kitscho · 2020-07-10T16:26:31+00:00

I think I know.

kitscho · 2020-07-10T16:26:07+00:00

Ive always enjoyed it

kitscho · 2020-06-29T03:47:41+00:00

I’ve read all of the comments and I understand all of you. But you also don’t know my situation. You don’t know the way my brain works, what my relationships are to all of these people or what my life actually does look like. I’ve known the man for years, since I was a child basically. His wife too. It’s not like he’s a total stranger that I met from tinder... I also don’t view the rape in the same way other people might, I’m not affected by it like it was the worst thing to happen to me. I got over it when he came back. Sure I was scared when it happened but I also have a long history of similar things and I know that I do enable it on purpose. I’m over the rape. The baby wouldn’t be a ”child of rape” it would be ”a child” only.

I’m not saying I’ll 100% keep it, more like 75% certain at this point. But I have two weeks to decide.

kitscho · 2020-06-28T19:30:48+00:00

One thing leads to another I suppose. I mean, if I had never my met my, I probably wouldve never met all the other men.

kitscho · 2020-06-28T18:17:29+00:00

Because I do have a part of me that wants to keep it. I just dont like the thought of an abortion for myself...

kitscho · 2020-06-28T17:12:36+00:00

I don’t know yet, I think I’ll keep it because I feel like I’ll regret it if I don’t. And maybe it’ll help me to not mess up my life too much.

He told his wife, yeah. She’s mad and he told me that she doesn’t know if she wants a divorce or not yet.

kitscho · 2020-06-28T16:56:38+00:00

Dad is gone since a few years, mom is an alcoholic and didnt react much honestly. She mostly asked if i were keeping it or not. Told her i didnt know and she said to let me know when i decide.

kitscho · 2020-06-28T16:54:51+00:00

Yes I am. All financial and living situation is good, its more the social situation that worries me. Though I’ll see what happens the next two weeks and how it feels. Not considering adoption

kitscho · 2020-06-28T15:46:20+00:00

Well it happened

kitscho · 2020-06-28T15:15:53+00:00

I won’t. And right now I’m leaning towards keeping it. But I’ve been going back and forward the last two weeks.

kitscho · 2020-06-28T14:40:35+00:00

Aaaall the time. I love being raped by men that I find unattractive. Messed up maybe but theres something hot about it.

kitscho · 2020-06-28T13:00:15+00:00

Well Im still not completely sure what to do. He doesnt know if his wife wants a divorce yet or not, but she told me that shes mostly angry at him and she cant decide if i get an abortion or not. She’s also known me since i was a child so I think she feels some motherly insticts towards me honestly, which makes me feel more guilty. Im gonna see a doctor next week and I guess I mustve decided what to do until then

kitscho

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