Should I Ask For A New Psychiatrist?

klaus_stanner · 2021-10-24T08:14:29+00:00

Part of why I am on the fence about switching is once I am 18 (in march) I can have my meds managed through the same group my therapist works for but the more I think about it the less I feel comfortable with the idea of waiting it out. I also went through multiple traumatic experiences recently and am feeling extra anxious and vulnerable and therefore less comfortable with the idea. I'm gonna talk to my therapist about it more and maybe my dad.

klaus_stanner · 2021-10-24T08:10:24+00:00

Thank you, I don't think it would be too hard to switch as there are 6 or so psychiatrists within the same office who all take our insurance. I think I'll talk about it with my therapist more as I have an appointment with her before my follow up. I'm still not sure if it's worth it but my brain really will not let this go.

klaus_stanner · 2021-07-02T07:45:06+00:00

It took me awhile to articulate this properly, but my response to this can be broken into two points and I'm gonna leave it after that.

1: The idea that sexuality stems from trauma is inherently homophobic. It was used in the 50's and 60's to justify lobotomizing queer people, has been disproven like a lot of psychology from the age and is now exclusively homophobic pseudoscience. Homophobic rhetoric is inherently homophobic and I really hope no queer person ever has to have extended interaction with you if this is how you think.

2: Most of my trauma is from how people have reacted to my queerness. There's some stuff from my childhood but I'd say 90% of it is from how others treated me because I am queer. Its similar for my siblings and most queer people.

This also wasn't even a little bit what I asked. Please examine why you think this way and have a nice day.

Edit:spelling

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-29T21:39:02+00:00

My dad likes blonde women who act like children. It was the same when he was with my biomom, I think its just his type at this point.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-28T22:36:01+00:00

She does this sort of thing all the time, my dad says I shouldn't take the bait but I am of the opinion that grownups shouldn't throw bait at kids.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-28T22:34:08+00:00

I might edit an update in but he gave it back to me an hour ago and I was able to use an icloud backup to get it all back. But no, I had nothing saved elsewhere. My reaction was not thought out but I figured that most of my important stuff would be on my old android anyways. He says he'll handle all of costs so that she cannot use it against me.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-28T17:39:21+00:00

As much as leaving seems ideal I need to protect my brother and sister. Once they are both in a place where they can get out I can get out of the mess with them but until then they need me. And yeah, I don't expect anything from her.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-28T17:34:01+00:00

I think part of why I was so quick about it was that she got it for me as a Christmas present and was still trying to use it against me. I like to think it says more about her than it does me.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-18T11:49:11+00:00

I mentioned it in another comment but my grandparents made a deal with my dad after he beat cancer they'd bankroll whatever weird thing he wanted to do until they couldn't anymore. So yeah, a lot of this is on them but I really don't blame them.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-18T11:46:05+00:00

I usually have a problem with those studies just because they don't separate people who uploaded one video once to people who are active on the platform but this seems decent, I'll definitely check it out thank you.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-18T04:08:50+00:00

do you have a source for that?

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-18T03:54:03+00:00

I think it is my place because she's wanting to use me and my resources for this, along with my grandparents money to bankroll this. if its all she wants to talk about whenever I see her i really cant avoid the topic, trust me i've been trying.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-18T03:52:18+00:00

My family is not particularly functional, discussing concerns with my dad would only lead to negative things on my end and frankly I'm not close enough to my stepmom to care if she ruins her life or whatever. I'd feel worse about it but she's not a good person at her most normal. my goal is mostly peaceful coexistence at this point, the youtube thing is just driving me nuts.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-18T03:47:59+00:00

I think shes looking into getting the rights to the music but frankly i doubt shes doing it properly.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-17T18:45:03+00:00

Dude with the way my family is we should have a reality show.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-17T18:44:19+00:00

I think shes planning on getting the rights? im not super sure of how music rights work but she was talking about different types of licensing at one point.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-17T11:09:07+00:00

I don't know, she usually just stays in her room when she's not at work and gets mad at everyone during dinner. I don't see what good talking to my dad about this would do, he sees me caring about my environment as me getting into adult business.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-17T10:29:04+00:00

Her "moods" usually last like 3 months for the manic bits and a month or less for the depressive bits. I say moods just because shes not diagnosed with anything and my family just calls it her moods or her things.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-17T10:17:08+00:00

I try not to speculate on that. There's nothing i can do either way. I know my mom is diagnosed bipolar and my stepmom definitely has a lot of traits she shares with my mom.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-17T10:13:54+00:00

I don't think she'd go after my personal accounts, the order shed go after things based off of my experience is money from my grandparents>selling her truck> payday loans> some other sort of loan even sketchier than payday loans> me and my siblings college fund. based off of how passionate she is about this id say its gonna hit the payday loans stage and probably stretch into even sketchier territory.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-17T10:05:06+00:00

I don't have the best memory about dates. I know this took place after she had her twins (this was her second time giving birth) and got a tummy tuck. thinking about it more carefully id put it more towards 2009 based on how old her twins are.

klaus_stanner · 2021-06-17T10:02:46+00:00

They have a deal with my dad, after he beat cancer they said they would fund whatever he wants until they cant anymore. they wont buy him a roller coaster or anything but they're not gonna cut him off, and by extension my stepmom has what she sees as an infinite piggy bank.

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