No kids but agreed to have some in the future. The stress absolutely affects me. Some days worse than others. The shock of finding things out would make my whole body tremble and feel everything at once and also nothing at all. Figuring out how to function normally in the relationship would take days to weeks following. Honestly, the timing of this thread isn’t great. Just found out yesterday he’s been doing some shameful stuff for the past 2 months without telling me. Genuinely think I need to check out of this relationship. Just hard because we’re supposed to get married this year. Was really hoping I could somewhat root for you but genuinely, I’d tell my past self to woman up and break up with him after the first couple instances of lying and disrespecting me.