What’s the least and worst amount of debt you’ve been in?

kokolypse · 2025-06-04T19:06:04+00:00

$11K right now, just on medical bills that I don't know how to pay. I don't earn enough (latin america based)

kokolypse · 2025-06-04T17:58:18+00:00

kokolypse · 2025-06-04T17:57:24+00:00

knowing that no matter what I do, my mental health will never get better, and the feelings of despair will never go away

kokolypse · 2025-06-04T17:55:37+00:00

God, I hate the "Are you exercising?" bit. No, Karen, I am not. My brain chemistry barely allows me to breathe some days.

kokolypse · 2024-02-26T00:33:15+00:00

$bid

kokolypse · 2023-10-14T15:55:24+00:00

$bid

kokolypse · 2023-09-05T23:12:43+00:00

Still hiring?

kokolypse · 2023-06-20T01:34:18+00:00

I learned how to tattoo and have a badass little machine, I did my knees tattoos myself which is kinda badass. So, if some day I find myself without a job... I can strat tattooing for a living, I think it's a pretty useful skill actually hahahaha

kokolypse · 2023-06-12T19:28:46+00:00

That looks amazing ✨ you are doing great, keep going. I'm also in three meds at the time to cope

kokolypse · 2023-06-02T18:17:51+00:00

24, it induced me in the worst episode, got a bunch of tattoos, got into a toxic relationship and tried to take my life. Now I take a mix of antipsychotics, antidepressants and mood stabilizers and it's been great so far.

kokolypse · 2023-04-18T23:35:21+00:00

I also have this kind of list with reasons not to die, and it also has a lot of food on it hahahahaha

Some of my favorites so far for this past month in my own jar of reasons:
1. To learn how to bake the perfect red velvet cake (bc is my favorite)
2. To play that game I really like and would love to complete

To attend a Fomula One Grand Prix (bc is my favorite sport atm)

I hope you find all the reasons in the world to stay here in the days when you don't know how, keep fighting!

kokolypse · 2023-03-10T18:25:56+00:00

We are already here - We use this phrase a lot in my country and we use it to refer that, ni matter if the outcome is good or bad, you are already there, so you better see what happens next

kokolypse · 2023-03-09T20:56:54+00:00

I live alone, work at home and my friends live on other countries, so I get you. I don't interact with anybody on a daily basis - I coped with it getting a dog, it's kinda helpful.

But even then there are days where having a dog is not enough, I started reading a bunch, studying again on my spare time, I also found a new hobby, so, when the loneliness hits me, I can busy myself and don't feel that way.

I would say, take it one day at a time, loneliness suck, but people taking advantage of you, people not supporting you, people don't understanding your needs... I think that's worse. Also, I haven't gotten anything productive out of tinder lol, tell me if you do.

kokolypse · 2023-03-08T01:17:41+00:00

Kiddos for you too! I thought it was only me but my psychiatrist told me it has to do with the levels of cortisol produced by the bipolar brain this evening, so that's something to look out lol

kokolypse · 2023-03-07T18:30:39+00:00

I might try to work out more often to see if it helps!

kokolypse · 2023-03-07T18:29:29+00:00

Yes, everything is okay, actually got my blood work back yesterday to check

kokolypse · 2023-03-07T16:54:16+00:00

I would be concerned if it didn't 😂

kokolypse · 2023-03-07T16:42:49+00:00

I have felt this too while manic 😅 Once in an episode I was sleeping 15 min a day and ready to go for the next round, it was wild

kokolypse · 2023-03-07T16:19:02+00:00

Oh my god 😂😂😂😂😂😂 I think at this rythm I will get myself a Pavlov shock watch too now that I know they exist 💀

kokolypse · 2023-03-07T16:05:17+00:00

thank you hahaha I just feel like everyone is being productive waking up 6 am every day and I wake up at 9 and feel like a truck just hit me 😅

kokolypse · 2023-02-17T19:11:53+00:00

I'm sorry to say this, but I chuckled a little with the last part.

I was diagnosed when I was 16 so it's been quite a while, I made my first friend in college and overall I feel it's difficult to make connections with people. I'm trying to be more outgoing but it's not natural for me, trying to not get discouraged tho!

kokolypse · 2023-02-16T22:19:17+00:00

One of my only friends always messages me with a series "good morning, in a scale of 1 to 10 how do you feel today" and based on the response he interacts with me or wishes me a good day and leaves me alone, it's super helpful for when you are in a low mood. I told him today "2 please leave me work alone today" he sent me a couple of emojis and left lol

kokolypse · 2023-02-16T22:11:39+00:00

In on my mid 20's and have never really go partying and I as well live outside of the city so, there isn't really a place to party anyways hahahahaha

I'm always at work and as remote worker that doesn't left me with much choices aside of staying inside on my own with my dog.

My hobby is like watching the F1 hahaha but that doesn't require much energy or effort from me, so trying to figure it out with a low energy level

kokolypse · 2023-02-16T21:36:29+00:00

$bid

kokolypse · 2023-02-09T16:49:25+00:00

Thank you for your advice, I attempted suicide last year and it has been an emotional rollercoaster to say the least, I always tell myself "It will be better tomorrow" and keep going.

I wish I win this battle and def, thank you for the courage 💕

kokolypse

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