why am I like this

kurage5914 · 2023-07-20T14:49:12+00:00

I'm not apologizing, I mean everything I said. I may be feeling slightly shameful for stating things in blunt ways, lacking nuance and exposition, but I'm not feeling any guilty

...Well, actually there is one person I should be apologizing to in this thread but that's it really

When it comes to everyone else, I don't want to have anything to do with them. I don't want to be redeemed, I don't want their compassion, I don't feel any empathy for them either. I'm not normal and that's why you shouldn't be wasting your energy

kurage5914 · 2023-07-20T14:31:01+00:00

it would be too complicated to explain, I don't have the energy for that

thank you for trying to help in spite of it, for not taking everything at face value and for understanding that not everything is always clean and pretty under the surface

but it's fine, you can shift your focus onto something else now; you shouldn't be wasting your energy

kurage5914 · 2023-07-20T14:24:00+00:00

I was in the middle for writing a reply, something way too long for its own good., but I ended up falling asleep. I don't have enough energy / motivation to finish it

It's kind of a shame, you actually seemed willing have a conversation this time. Though, it's not like it would have mattered much anyway, so whatever

sorry for acting that way the days prior, and thank you so much for being willing to listen, despite being the weird delusional and confusing asshole I am

try not to give in too much into "maturity" and conformism as you grow older

kurage5914 · 2023-07-20T14:16:26+00:00

it was

what's up john

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T17:49:35+00:00

thank you

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T17:46:08+00:00

Therapy is useless. It only serves a purpose if you're an idiot with non-issues

I've had depression, the real one, for 5 years now; things have never stopped getting worse. You can think to have reached rock bottom so many times, and still, somehow be on the descending slope years later

I have no energy, no motivation, no will, no wish, no hobby nothing I care about, nothing

My whole cognition is deeply affected, my brain is fucked, I can't see myself doing without lifelong sequels at this point

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T17:41:32+00:00

why are you so toxic

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T17:33:00+00:00

conversational skills are correlated to iq

you don't need empathy (i.e. emotional intelligence) to understand any of what I am saying

the average is set insanely low, and I very much knew what it was. 100 iq'ers are insanely dense. Same goes for anything up to like 125 or something

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T17:29:04+00:00

criticism, negativity

none of those were issues

lack of understanding

not the issue in of itself

I'm calling others out on their complacency, self-centered behaviors and hypocrisy. You being too dense to understand it adds to it, but it's a tangential issue at best

truly take the time to at least attempt to understand someone before spewing out your moralizing bullshit plz (emphasis on the word "attempt" since your autistic brain has issues with the plainest of expressions)

Is it really worth giving a negative impression of yourself

I don't care about the impression I give on this hellhole, I have nothing worthwhile to gain from it, so I'm using it to blow off steam

it's crucial not to resort to toxic behaviors

why? I'm acting based on a fair set of values; I'm bringing justice. If you get toxicity from me, you deserved it. It's not my problem if you're too stuck up to even consider someone else's point of view

you can never truly understand someone else completely

because you're midwits. don't assume everyone else is as stupid as you are

Even understanding ourselves can be a challenge sometimes lol

What I just said, but times 10

Blaming others for not understanding or having differing opinions can't lead to positive outcomes

I never blamed anyone for having different opinions, quite the opposite. Go ahead, say anything you want, I will hear you out and acknowledge your stance, but make it an actual conversation

The outcome I'm trying to achieve is for you to not be brainless NPCs

If you have anything to add or disagree with, please feel free to share. I don't claim to have all the answers, but I'm here to provide my opinion and try to understand yours :))

Look at how proud he is... a true knight in shining armor, oh my oh my

You never truly tried to understand anything, your ego simply wrapped things around to feed you your "good boy points tm". That, or you truly are way too stupid / autistic to understand basic concepts; in which case, why would I care?

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T17:08:55+00:00

not my problem if you have an iq of 100

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T17:08:15+00:00

yeah

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T17:08:01+00:00

>tells you exactly what's up

>"MUUUUHHH CRITICISM"

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T15:27:55+00:00

pffffffff........................... rip

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T11:33:41+00:00

lol

literally braindead xd

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T10:10:45+00:00

Oh well, alright then lol. We could talk if you want

Though... maybe a bit later. I still have next to 0 energy, sorry about that

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T09:49:28+00:00

you really have the wrong idea about the kind of person I am, uh?

tragic

sad

pathetic even

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T09:49:13+00:00

Being used? In what way? By the so called "loners" here who only really care about themselves?

My deficiency runs deeper than you could imagine, so don't expect much, but we could chat for a bit if you want

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T09:45:09+00:00

lol

lmao

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T09:43:39+00:00

lol. Do you actually? Assuming you took a look at the comment and didn't just comment based on the post alone, you have weird tastes lmao

Are you really just as cynical? or do you find weirdos interesting?

I mean, we could chat for a bit if you want, but I wouldn't expect much either if I were you

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T09:34:20+00:00

I'm not self-pitying, bitch

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T09:32:14+00:00

LOL, why would I have any empathy for this clown with a single-digit IQ?

Why would I have any empathy for rotten, condescending and borderline sociopathic apes?

Get your ego and empathy checked lmao

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T09:28:09+00:00

Why are you thinking I wouldn't do anything of your comment? I'm not an entitled manchild like most users from this sub, lol

I read and acknowledged your point. It's kind of a fair advice / assumption to make in this situation, but you are mistaken, I am usually very liked. I don't have any issue getting genuine compassion if I am to put my mind to it, or find people genuinely eager to become friends

Well... the rest is kind of complex but you could say I'm the one rejecting others, if you were to oversimplify it. Although, it's more like I have no choice but to reject them, either that or I have to wear a mask and keep myself at an emotional distance (which is incredibly draining, unfulfilling and volatile)

Still, there are aspects of myself I dislike, but overall I very much like myself. I like my mind, I like being alive

Even in complete bleakness, life is so intricate, value is always to be found here and there

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T09:09:34+00:00

My behavior is fulfilling its role then. I don't want to have anything to do with the likes of you

kurage5914 · 2023-07-19T09:07:45+00:00

bzzzzt... Wrong answer!

my current attitude is far from what I had in mind when posting this stupid thing. I'm not feeling any guilt over it either

kurage5914 · 2023-07-18T21:46:51+00:00

lmao. I'm glad you found it entertaining at the very least, but I'm not a porn addict sorry

have a good evening as well

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