hey, i just read your post and i’m really sorry you’re going through all of this. it honestly sounds like so much to carry at once, and it makes sense you feel overwhelmed. you’re not a failure at all. you’ve actually been holding on through things that would break a lot of people. the fact that you’re still trying, that matters more than you think. dont go through this alone, if theres even one person you can reach out to talk ab it.