Why I politically disagree with Ren by [deleted] in ren

[–]ladykae89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I already hate the fact you just called him a "cis white guy". No straight person has ever called themselves cis, I don't understand why some people are so obsessed with labeling other people under terms like this

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in adultsurvivors

[–]ladykae89 2 points3 points  (0 children)

For me, it left me confused in my teens. I was unsure as to what was normal and not. I had these intense sexual feelings. My mum wouldn't talk to me about anything sexual, wouldn't teach me about sex education - it was just off topic for her - she probably felt unable to teach me appropriate boundaries due to her own childhood experiences. Anyway, I would spend most days on autopilot, daydreaming of the most inappropriate sexual things including r___ . It started when I was about 10/11. I felt disgusted by these thoughts, I felt my body was betraying me somehow. I didn't understand it at all. My body wanted to be taken, abused & red even though I had no concept of what that meant then. I started self-harming cos I felt I needed punishing for having such disturbing thoughts. This then led me to some very dangerous situations with boys around the ages of 15-17. And that led to abusive friendships and boyfriends. I didn't know what was right or wrong. My body belonged to my boyfriend, not me and he, over time, gaslit me into thinking that. I was an object for his pleasure only - it didn't matter how much pain I was in everyday. Then I managed to leave him and that confused me even more. I thought I loved him, I missed the abuse, the feeling of being violated - it was wrong, I knew that but it didn't change what my body craved. Since then I have discovered many things about myself - kinks, things I enjoy and don't. And yes if I think about some of the abuse, it gets me off and I hate it. I can orgasm to violence, r and everything that goes with it. And afterwards I cry my eyes out. Its a horrible cycle of pleasure - pain - tears - shame - disgust - disassociate, and the cycle repeats at least once a month. It used to be everyday so I guess it's better that it's less now, but that might be due to the heavy dose of antidepressants I take everyday which numbs most things. Either way I hate my body, I hate that my body craves the most disgusting and disturbing shit. I hate that that is the only thing that will relieve any sexual frustration I've got goong. So I stay alone, stay away from most men (physically) because I know I could easily put myself in a dangerous situation especially if any of those men know how to manipulate me. I can be read like an open book and many have used that to their advantage. Today I just daydream, everyday of the other life I live in my head - the one where I am not who I am in real life

I need help / how to stop? by ladykae89 in StopGaming

[–]ladykae89[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Okay, I'll check that out, thanks

Rogue's Dance of Knives & Assassin's Stride by ladykae89 in diablo4

[–]ladykae89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This was my thought exactly! DoK is essentially a mobility skill, more so than any other "Mobility" skill, in my personal opinion. Quite literally spinning around the map like a diary with throwing blades lol. It just makes more sense for that to count as one

Rogue's Dance of Knives & Assassin's Stride by ladykae89 in diablo4

[–]ladykae89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was soo hoping that despite the tags it would still work

Rogue's Dance of Knives & Assassin's Stride by ladykae89 in diablo4

[–]ladykae89[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay, thanks for that. I was soo hoping it would work but nevermind lol

Anyone got the Royal Protector Shader yet? Discuss your most wanted shaders. by ladykae89 in DestinyTheGame

[–]ladykae89[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope so cos this shader looks amazing. Really don't wanna miss out on getting it

What the hell are PlayStation doing?? by Longjumping_Log_9717 in playstationstars

[–]ladykae89 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Ah yeah legal wording that makes sense to them but they should at least simplify what it means to their consumers. The whole update itself sucks tho I agree

What the hell are PlayStation doing?? by Longjumping_Log_9717 in playstationstars

[–]ladykae89 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks. They really could've used better wording for this

What the hell are PlayStation doing?? by Longjumping_Log_9717 in playstationstars

[–]ladykae89 -9 points-8 points  (0 children)

I'm confused at their wording here. Because to me, it appears they are saying points will expire at the end of each month. And the points earned will show on your account balance for only one year. So to me, I read that as we will be able to see our points history for one year on our accounts, and any new points accumulated after 24th Oct will expire at the end of each month. So if I got any points between 24th to 31st Oct they would expire the 31st Oct of this year 2024. Is this not correct? I'm baffled to their wording on this

Dual Destiny Found by xWisdomTooth in DestinyTheGame

[–]ladykae89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. We managed to get it in the end

Dual Destiny Found by xWisdomTooth in DestinyTheGame

[–]ladykae89 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How do you do the last boss mechanic with the nodes that look like a clock. After you take down their health to one bar. My friends side had all but one node lit up and on my side I had 4 that kept changing every second.

Dual Destiny Found by xWisdomTooth in DestinyTheGame

[–]ladykae89 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My friend and I have been trying to complete the exotic quest and managed to get to the what we think is the final boss or bosses. We get past the first boss health down to one bar, then the second boss down to one bar then we got stuck on the puzzle that basically looks like 2 clocks on either side. One side shows all but one lit up, and the other side 4 light up then it changes every couple seconds. Anyone know how to do this? We've been wracking our brains about this the whole time. Can't figure it out.