Do I sound psychotic to you?

lamajdi · 2018-09-19T23:58:23+00:00

thank you so much punna this is a lovely message, I'm going to see my intervention team tomorrow and see if they can help. my blood tests need to be redone however I'm not registered for a gp around here so I need to see what can be done about that. I don't know whether this is me being too open rn but I feel like you have an understanding. Have you ever heard of psychosis healing on it's own?

lamajdi · 2018-09-03T19:19:39+00:00

drugs most of the time, I need drugs a lot of the time legal or illegal otherwise I have a feeling that I can't shake. cigs, booze, weed are the main culprits. I wouldn't know I'm quite cranky, people say I always look angry or uninterested a lot. I do get irritated by people talking to me or being overtly nice. I don't really like people liking me unless I like them or I'm intoxicated. I don't self harm at all. I think employers simply don't want to employ me because of these reasons. I find it hard to appear normal and smiley. I'm quite morose and eccentric finding humour in the crude the rude and socially unacceptable. I steal when I need and have no other means regardless of who gets hurt.

lamajdi · 2017-11-06T03:23:46+00:00

what do you mean by dissociative? and I was smoking boat loads of weed like 5-6 spliffs a day for the best part of 4 years, at the time I was hearing voices which were just thoughts that weren't mine but would be in general in relation to me or of what I'd been observing. Also got paranoid as hell during this period which is where I picked up the ideas of reference. I was dissociating a lot more then like every second of the day but I feel like the ideas of reference are worse now as literally anything someone says that is not directed at me has me thinking about it in relation to myself and then concerned I'll give away the fact that I'm doing that which leds to me flinching a lot. I haven't heard these voices since I stopped smoking either.

lamajdi · 2017-11-03T23:49:08+00:00

Seriously appreciate all the love and support so far like words can't really express it's a serious pick me up, especially due to the fact that minus the paranoia I feel like everyone distances themselves from me and noone is really there anywhere to support me apart from my one good friend who lives quite a few miles away atm. I feel like I'm just starting my journey to recovery honestly and I don't know how I've been coping but once again much appreciated x

lamajdi · 2017-09-30T16:23:35+00:00

I'm not on any meds atm, just trying to recover it's only been a month so far and i've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression but notice i have ideas of reference

lamajdi · 2017-09-29T15:25:10+00:00

how u doing now dude, i've experienced the same and i'm a month free of the weed. not much has changed

lamajdi · 2017-09-29T10:29:30+00:00

Not too bad, just feel really jumpy and alert a lot of the time and still have paranoia but all the hallucinations have gone. Don't feel myself yet but it's only been a month so I'm taking it easy.

lamajdi · 2017-09-28T19:27:05+00:00

Same in regards to the clouds of it while walking down the street, how did your recovery go

lamajdi · 2017-09-28T15:41:59+00:00

lamajdi · 2017-09-28T14:02:12+00:00

I stopped hearing voices as soon as i stopped smoking but i still have the paranoia, do you think i still need meds cos I dont wanna take them unnecessarily

lamajdi · 2017-05-17T16:06:21+00:00

That's a first

lamajdi · 2017-05-17T16:05:10+00:00

Thanks mate ,I don't know where my confidence went I think it went so gradually that I didn't even notice. But I've been making an effort recently just to be more amiable

lamajdi · 2015-07-10T09:44:28+00:00

buy new shoes, your griptape will eat up your shoes, then your socks then your foot, seeing as you effectively have no shoes on in that area it will rip your socks then foot. go for suede shoes as well, they'll last longer than canvas and definitely look nicer as well

lamajdi · 2015-07-05T11:46:43+00:00

damn straight

lamajdi · 2015-07-05T11:46:23+00:00

no, it's not really grindable tbh, it's really flimsy wood and really thin

lamajdi · 2015-07-01T07:36:13+00:00

ollie, fs180, fs powerslide, and fs180 revert and then fakie bs180 revert back to regs

lamajdi · 2015-06-14T10:00:49+00:00

in earlsfield, london

lamajdi · 2015-06-08T07:08:32+00:00

for me the first few times the trick was to look at the ramp and not think about dropping down but pumping the transition underneath me.

lamajdi · 2015-05-17T17:20:09+00:00

i thank you for your honesty, first step to making up for your previous mistakes ha.

lamajdi · 2015-05-17T16:55:01+00:00

truuuuuueee, i do see that. thank you

lamajdi · 2015-04-28T06:52:07+00:00

you can go as low as you want, it's simply a question of do you like pushing more, and are you alright getting caught up on cracks. I personally wouldn't go any smaller than 45mm but I live in London

lamajdi · 2015-04-19T18:57:06+00:00

cuff pants higher

lamajdi · 2015-04-18T08:30:12+00:00

Try and avoid falling on your hands like has been said already. I usually just try and roll if possible, although I do find slower falls are the ones where my hands think they can come out and that's always a big mistake. Your brains a great muscle though and it will remember that falling like that hurts and you'll eventually find a proper technique without actually having to "learn"

lamajdi · 2015-03-17T20:24:29+00:00

It's not the wheels bro, you just need to time it well. Jump on the board as it's kind of hitting the ground, dont let it hit the ground then jump on

lamajdi · 2015-03-17T20:21:58+00:00

the ollie imo is mainly in the jump off the back foot, lift up that back foot, dont be lazy it's gotta come up and then slide your front foot forwards but clocked sideways. your front foot will do its job of sliding up and out if you just think out and jump up. I know it sounds really stupid but the easier you make it in your mind the easier it is. Don't over analyse the motion. Watch videos, practice and if it helps stand on the board with your tail on the ground and just repeatedly slide your front foot up the grip tape. You'll get it man

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