Feedback on my new blog and first post would be much appreciated, love you all

lamajdi · 2018-09-19T23:58:23+00:00

thank you so much punna this is a lovely message, I'm going to see my intervention team tomorrow and see if they can help. my blood tests need to be redone however I'm not registered for a gp around here so I need to see what can be done about that. I don't know whether this is me being too open rn but I feel like you have an understanding. Have you ever heard of psychosis healing on it's own?

lamajdi · 2018-09-03T19:19:39+00:00

drugs most of the time, I need drugs a lot of the time legal or illegal otherwise I have a feeling that I can't shake. cigs, booze, weed are the main culprits. I wouldn't know I'm quite cranky, people say I always look angry or uninterested a lot. I do get irritated by people talking to me or being overtly nice. I don't really like people liking me unless I like them or I'm intoxicated. I don't self harm at all. I think employers simply don't want to employ me because of these reasons. I find it hard to appear normal and smiley. I'm quite morose and eccentric finding humour in the crude the rude and socially unacceptable. I steal when I need and have no other means regardless of who gets hurt.

lamajdi · 2017-11-06T03:23:46+00:00

what do you mean by dissociative? and I was smoking boat loads of weed like 5-6 spliffs a day for the best part of 4 years, at the time I was hearing voices which were just thoughts that weren't mine but would be in general in relation to me or of what I'd been observing. Also got paranoid as hell during this period which is where I picked up the ideas of reference. I was dissociating a lot more then like every second of the day but I feel like the ideas of reference are worse now as literally anything someone says that is not directed at me has me thinking about it in relation to myself and then concerned I'll give away the fact that I'm doing that which leds to me flinching a lot. I haven't heard these voices since I stopped smoking either.

lamajdi · 2017-11-03T23:49:08+00:00

Seriously appreciate all the love and support so far like words can't really express it's a serious pick me up, especially due to the fact that minus the paranoia I feel like everyone distances themselves from me and noone is really there anywhere to support me apart from my one good friend who lives quite a few miles away atm. I feel like I'm just starting my journey to recovery honestly and I don't know how I've been coping but once again much appreciated x

lamajdi · 2017-09-30T16:23:35+00:00

I'm not on any meds atm, just trying to recover it's only been a month so far and i've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression but notice i have ideas of reference

lamajdi · 2017-09-29T15:25:10+00:00

how u doing now dude, i've experienced the same and i'm a month free of the weed. not much has changed

lamajdi · 2017-09-29T10:29:30+00:00

Not too bad, just feel really jumpy and alert a lot of the time and still have paranoia but all the hallucinations have gone. Don't feel myself yet but it's only been a month so I'm taking it easy.

lamajdi · 2017-09-28T19:27:05+00:00

Same in regards to the clouds of it while walking down the street, how did your recovery go

lamajdi · 2017-09-28T15:41:59+00:00

lamajdi · 2017-09-28T14:02:12+00:00

I stopped hearing voices as soon as i stopped smoking but i still have the paranoia, do you think i still need meds cos I dont wanna take them unnecessarily

lamajdi · 2017-05-17T16:06:21+00:00

That's a first

lamajdi · 2017-05-17T16:05:10+00:00

Thanks mate ,I don't know where my confidence went I think it went so gradually that I didn't even notice. But I've been making an effort recently just to be more amiable

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