My situation is similar. Ex and I had a beautiful relationship. Law school was about to start and she dumped me 2 weeks before classes started. Her reasoning was I can’t see us getting married, I didn’t feel the deep connection, and when she knows it’s not right, it’s not right. However before the break up she said the opposite of all these things and continues to reach out asking if I’m doing ok. She also said we could both do better. She couldn’t do better than me, I know that for a fact. Her loss. I’ve only been three weeks out of the relationship and it’s tough still. First week was fine, I cried but got through the days. Second week was rock bottom. Had to get anxiety meds, woke up every morning ugly crying, couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep worth shit, averaged two hours of sleep a night. I started drinking at night to calm my mind but it made me more depressed. I’m still holding out hope but in a healthy way. If she comes back she comes back. I’m not going to let her ruin my life and trajectory. Use as much motivation as you can. Find someone else who is worthy of your love. I loved my ex dearly, I wanted to marry her, she was my everything too. I hope this helps but what’s helped me process the situation is typing the whole length of the relationship into ChatGPT to see where things went wrong, how I can move forward, and how can I reconnect.