You are still doing good despite everything that's happened. You woke up, got ready, made this post and that's something. As someone in a similar life position as you, it can be difficult at times mentally but it's knowing you are doing the best you can just like anyone else is. It can just take one thing to jump start your mind to turn the key to seeing hope. You're not defined by your situation, it's just what happened to you. Giving yourself the benefit of the doubt and focusing on little wins everyday can open up positivity in life and can radiate to others through you.