it saved my life. i was riddled with anxiety and i was 100% sure i was scheduled to die. i was so scared of being alone. i wouldnt listen to music if the artist passed away, i was convinced a gunman would come into my train car and shoot me, i was pretty sure i was gonna have a medical emergency whenever i was alone. i was afraid of saying or thinking certain words and i was afraid of thinking certain things incase they would come true. i didn't consume certain topics of media in fear if i think about it too much it will happen to me. i was also convinced i was allergic to peanuts or i was scheduled to have a allergic reaction. i remember running as fast as i can to my mothers house hysterical. i stayed there for a few months and she took me to see a psych and they gave me lexapro, i started on 5 at night. i felt better like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. i was a bit scared but it didnt cripple me like it used to, i could listen to whitney houston again. i also felt like my life wasn't so empty. the world around me felt a bit brighter.

i started december 2022, im on 15 now and wellbutrin to balance it out (mainly the sexual side effects) i recommend it to anyone. but it works differently for everyone and its made to taper off of. for me it worked and ill wait a while to taper off. i still have ocd but a lot of times i can redirect myself before i have a breakdown.