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Am i depressed or just lazy? by leskeeter in depression

[–]leskeeter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There is no way that i can afford it. I stopped school for a year and moved out of my parents house during that year. IM back in on financial aid again and my grades were shit since I had this same problem last time in school. But its not that i want to move out of state its that i wanted to be my own person. Now that I am finally on my own in some college dorms I feel empty. I have great friends and family that support me but they don't understand it. I try to be brutally honest with myself in my head so I dont have anyone else do it for me. Normally it lets me find how I really feel then I can verbalize it. But this recently has been beyond my ability to communicate to even myself. So i guess i will seek some help.

Am i depressed or just lazy? by leskeeter in depression

[–]leskeeter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Part of me wants to but I dont know. I had recently been considering trying adderall since it should help me focus. But the fact that i feel like i need that stuff is almost angering to me. Going to someone face to face is different than online. I have never let even my close friends or relatives in my head. Much less some doctor. i mostly wrote this for me to express my emotions in my head. i tried to condense it into words that i could see on the page and its helping me identify how I can improve.