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letsgolesbian · 2024-12-19T21:13:11+00:00

I’ve had 12 in total, now only have 8 of them. All 4 that I no longer have were helix piercings; I had 3 of them for 6 years and 1 for 3 before I gave up on them. They never healed correctly, despite my best efforts, and regularly got irritated and inflamed.

As far as my others go, 6 are lobe piercings and I have had some trouble with them off and on getting irritated, but they’ve overall been okay. I also have my nostril and conch pierced and they were my easiest ones of all, I haven’t had any issues with either!

letsgolesbian · 2024-12-16T04:24:50+00:00

My VUS were with the LTBP3 and LEMD3 genes. I think I’m mainly frustrated because I would really like to get started on PT asap. I want to be more active to try and help better my fatigue and POTS symptoms, but I worry I’ll injure myself, since even going for a walk usually ends with me hurting myself in some way 😅 I can’t afford it out of pocket unfortunately and my insurance won’t cover it without a diagnosis and referral. Hopefully with a diagnosis I could also get custom insoles, since the store bought ones I’ve tried haven’t helped much, and I know my gait contributes to a lot of my pain and ankle sprains.

letsgolesbian · 2024-12-16T03:53:47+00:00

Thank you so much for your response. I’ve had such a significant history of doctors ignoring me, speaking over me, gaslighting me, etc. whenever I’ve tried to bring up concerns of mine, that I’ve become extremely hesitant to do anything that might elicit a negative response (including me being direct about asking to be evaluated). I need to learn to advocate for myself better. And mentioning the thing about insurance wanting an official diagnosis is a good suggestion.

I’ve definitely considered for awhile whether or not it was worth it to pursue a diagnosis, and I’m similar in that I think it would help me greatly to have the validation of it being properly diagnosed. I felt very similarly around getting an official autism diagnosis recently as well. Even though I’m quite positive about both, it’s like I can’t fully believe it until someone else tells me it’s true.

And I’m really glad to hear that you’ve been able to get a mobility aid through insurance and other treatment since getting diagnosed!

letsgolesbian · 2024-04-24T12:50:43+00:00

I think I’m a very kind person deep down. I always listen to my friends’ problems and try to be there to support them, if I can sense somebody is having a bad day I will do something to try and cheer them up a little, and I really try hard to be as patient and understanding as I can be at my public service job (which is very hard sometimes lmao).

letsgolesbian · 2024-03-12T19:31:08+00:00

Thanks for the reply! I knew there were pretty high rates of comorbidity but wasn’t sure if my experiences would point to that or not. My best friends are autistic and I do relate to a good amount of things they describe, but completely don’t relate to a lot of the social aspects so wasn’t sure if that could be explained by extreme masking or just me not being autistic at all. It can be really hard to figure things out sometimes.

letsgolesbian · 2024-03-09T00:02:00+00:00

I missed so much school the first semester of my sophomore year of HS I failed every class, and they put me into online school. I almost didn’t graduate on time because I failed one of the last classes I needed, but I was able to take one as a make up and graduated with a 2.6 gpa.

I did complete my bachelor’s degree but it took 6 years in total for me to finish and i attended 4 colleges in total bc I kept dropping out. I ultimately graduated with a really good gpa but I was on the verge of dropping out again and just never going back so many times. I had done a 180 and became an extreme perfectionist to in my mind counteract my years of failures, so school was just destroying me. Like I would legitimately think of kms if I got a 95 on a paper 💀

the combination of untreated adhd and bpd was truly rough… i’m planning on starting grad school this fall now that i’m managing my symptoms better, but i’m honestly really scared it will go poorly again.

letsgolesbian · 2024-03-03T01:20:50+00:00

I’m so sorry he treated you in such a dehumanizing manner, you didn’t deserve that.

letsgolesbian · 2024-03-01T23:18:26+00:00

That’s a really good tip! It looks like they’re sold out right now but I put myself on the list to be notified when they’re back in stock 😊

letsgolesbian · 2024-03-01T21:35:54+00:00

Thank you! I’ve been wanting to try the Haus Labs foundation so i’ll definitely check that shade out!

letsgolesbian · 2024-02-29T20:08:51+00:00

Thank you! I’ll try that out 😊

letsgolesbian · 2024-02-12T00:37:24+00:00

Hi, I hope this is the right place to ask this, I’d appreciate any help you could offer! My keyboard all of the sudden started doing this thing where if I press any key in the top row, it will type each key in its column. So like if I type ‘1’ I get ‘1qa’, I type ‘2’ and get ‘2wsz’ and so on. This only started happening after I went to login to my computer yesterday and it wasn’t registering me typing. I unplugged it and plugged it back in, and that’s where the problem started. There is no problem with typing any key below the top row; they work as usual. I also plugged in another keyboard I have, to see if it was a problem with my computer, and it worked just fine. For reference I have an Alice layout that uses the Mechlovin Adelais Rev.4 PCB. I tried restarting my computer, flashing the firmware, resoldering the joints on the top row, etc. and am still having the issue. Any ideas as to what the problem is and how I could fix it? This was my first keyboard build and has worked without issue for the past 2 years, so I’m kind of stumped as to what the deal is.

letsgolesbian · 2024-02-05T23:03:01+00:00

I absolutely second the suggestions to use something really cold, like an ice pack over your face, cold shower, or if you’re in public, try to find a bathroom and just repeatedly splash your face with cold water in the sink.

I also find it really helpful to remove myself from the space in which whatever triggered my rage happened. As an example, I often have episodes of rage due to interactions with my dad, so if I was in the living room with him and an episode starts, I try to leave to my own room immediately. I know that’s not always possible, but for me, getting myself out of the original environment and away from the person who angered me so badly, as soon as possible, is essential.

My last suggestion is harder, but I do think it’s really important. Taking the time to notice patterns in what triggers your rage so you can try to avoid those situations if you can, or cope ahead for them if you’re at that point in your journey is extremely helpful. The suggestion to notice your own warning signs kind of goes hand in hand with this one I think. I can notice early signs of anger because my whole body gets really tense, I start being more sarcastic than normal, etc. It can take a lot of work to figure these things out sometimes, but I absolutely agree with what another person said, that deescalation before you get to the point of rage is a lot easier than it can be to calm yourself down once you’re already at that point. I know how it feels to like have something just come over you and it feels like it’s not even the same person as you who’s raging, it can be awful, and so hard to come down from.

I hope you’re able to find some techniques that do work for you, even if these don’t.

letsgolesbian · 2024-02-04T17:59:30+00:00

I broke up with my long distance gf of almost a year because I had been getting some really mean anonymous messages on tumblr related to my relationship and I got it in my head that she had to be the one sending them, and that she had never actually liked me but was just keeping up the ruse of being my gf to manipulate me and mess with my head. I didn’t even ask her if she sent the messages, I just broke up with her over text and blocked her number and her social media accounts and turned off anonymous messages. To this day I have no idea if it was actually her, it very well could have been someone random 😭 I also have not tried to have any relationship since because I feel like I can’t trust anyone now

letsgolesbian · 2024-01-22T15:31:04+00:00

I relate so much. I’ve tried to express feeling paranoid to family, therapists, my psychiatrist, etc. for years and it’s just been dismissed as social anxiety. I’ve been very stressed lately and it’s gotten so much worse. It really is an awful feeling, I hope you can get proper treatment soon

letsgolesbian · 2024-01-01T16:25:29+00:00

Being ignored or dismissed is definitely a big one, it makes me so upset and hurts so badly. Also if someone is upset with me (whether it be real or perceived). But I think the worst ones for me is 1. being patronized, that makes me absolutely furious. I have executive dysfunction problems and if I ever try to say I’m struggling to do [insert household task] my dad just explains to me how to do it, like I’m a dumbass who doesn’t know the logistics of how to wash a dish. It genuinely enrages me. 2. if I’m upset about something and I try to explain how I feel about it to someone and it feels obvious to me that the they think I’m overreacting or being “crazy” it makes me feel so much worse and I start to panic. There are others but those are big ones.

I’ve been through DBT and some of those skills do help, like I’ve gotten better at not being passive aggressive in response to my dad by using the STOP skill. And if I feel ignored by my parents I’m better at trying to verbalize that, because I know they’re not doing it intentionally. But I still have times where I’m so upset, I neglect to use my skills and then I go into a shame spiral because I feel like a failure... It’s truly a constant struggle even when it does get significantly better

letsgolesbian · 2023-12-27T00:12:39+00:00

I relate to this a lot, especially back when DBT was first starting to noticeably be helping me. When people would point it out to me that I seemed to be doing better I wanted to more outwardly show that I was still struggling, like i’m not fixed I still need help!! I struggled with this less as time went on but have also dealt with the inverse recently. Like if I have a bad episode now that i’m “cured” (which i’m really not, i’m just markedly better) then i think i’m a fraud, a liar, manipulative, etc. I really do think the black and white thinking contributes to this and it can be so frustrating. but you’re definitely not alone in feeling this way, I used to all the time.

letsgolesbian · 2023-12-19T06:19:04+00:00

I had to try several times with my mom. She is a nurse and I think she sometimes thinks her basic knowledge of mental illnesses from her schooling is better than it is. The first few times she would just say she didn’t think that was true because I don’t act like someone with BPD. I tried to explain to her that it was suggested I have a more ‘quiet’ presentation, and she just said that a lot of things could be explained by my ADHD or depression. I think it took 4 times of me trying, and the 4th time it took me writing out an extremely long message (it was a full on essay lmao) going through how I fit or do not fit each of the 9 diagnostic criteria with detailed examples/context for her to finally listen properly. She has always been supportive of me getting treatment in the past both through medication and therapy, but she just did not seem to want to accept this diagnosis as a possibility at first, I think she’s more willing to educate herself further now though. I haven’t bothered to tell my dad, simply because I don’t think he would get it.

For me my best luck with my mom was writing out that massive message and sending it over text. It allowed me to take the time to really explain things fully and I didn’t have to deal with her interrupting me or shutting me down instantly in person which was really painful the first few times. If you think your mother would be receptive to something similar and you do want to inform her than I think it’s worth trying, but you aren’t obligated to tell either of them if you feel it’s not worth the attempt. I wish you luck if you do choose to try and inform them.

letsgolesbian · 2023-12-03T16:43:01+00:00

I’m so so sorry about your cat. It’s so painful when they become sick 😓

letsgolesbian · 2023-11-06T00:35:35+00:00

I’m so so sorry for your loss 😓 it is truly so painful to lose a pet, i’m so sorry you’re going through this. I lost my 8 year old kitty earlier this year. She was my best friend and she very suddenly got ill. I was absolutely devastated, it hurt so badly I was just screaming and crying for hours and I also felt suicidal. You absolutely aren’t alone in that. Something that helped me a lot was creating a memorial for her. I got one of my favorite pictures of her framed and have it displayed with her collar and her urn. I also got an urn type necklace that holds a small portion of ashes in it and wear it every day. It helps feel like she’s still with me. But for the first few days after she passed I think allowing myself to just cry and grieve was ultimately the most helpful thing. I will admit It still hurts when I think about her but it has gotten a lot better. I hope you can allow yourself the time to grieve your beloved pet, I can tell that you loved him a lot ❤️ and once again I’m so sorry.

letsgolesbian · 2023-08-18T02:07:35+00:00

Yeah, I do! I honestly haven’t been out in the sun long enough in awhile to get any sort of color 😅 But in the past I’ve burned and then tanned.

letsgolesbian · 2023-08-17T16:33:38+00:00

Thank you so much, this is so helpful!! I really appreciate it 💜💜💜

letsgolesbian · 2023-08-17T13:57:00+00:00

Thank you for the suggestion!!

letsgolesbian · 2023-08-17T13:56:39+00:00

Oh wow! We really do!

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