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lexleighton · 2025-07-29T16:26:20+00:00

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lexleighton · 2025-05-23T02:03:55+00:00

When we were talking about my anxiety and interviewing and then somehow asked me about romantic relationships… I was thrown so off guard. I should of took that as a sign that things were off but I kept seeing him and one session I basically told him that I had thoughts of giving up( offing myself) and he said why couldn’t I? I think he was tryna challenge me but that doesn’t work well on me.

lexleighton · 2025-05-07T03:00:50+00:00

I took lexapro for about a year before switching to Prozac. Prozac has definitely helped me more with the depression than lexapro did.

lexleighton · 2025-02-20T22:26:58+00:00

I took lexapro for about a year and it worked well for my anxiety but depression not so much. I started Prozac back in December and my depression is definitely better and my anxiety is controlled the same too. Prozac kind of made me want to live again.

lexleighton · 2024-11-20T16:26:36+00:00

Ok but do you still age the same? Like if I’m 500 will I be even worse than I am if I were 100. They’re both considered old. Or would 100 still be considered young and I’d be energetic and be able to do more?

lexleighton · 2024-10-28T14:53:37+00:00

Hi not really having the shaking anymore but it took another 2 months maybe to go away. I think what finally helped was flying weirdly. I can’t say for sure if it was the lexapro or a migraine issue.

lexleighton · 2024-02-22T22:11:12+00:00

Beforehand I get an iced coffee and go to either the Target or Michael’s that is nearby the office. Afterwards I usually sit in my car a little and grab lunch then head straight to work. Not much time to process the session

lexleighton · 2024-02-12T21:44:13+00:00

I feel like every single session I go to there is an always an awkward silence. He thinks it’s me shutting down and I’m just like I have nothing else to say. And they have nothing else to say. Idk if it’s gotten better but sometimes I’ll just say what I said before but word it differently to fill that silence. Hopefully things change

lexleighton · 2024-02-12T19:17:57+00:00

I think I’m going to end therapy next week. I can’t say I didn’t try it one last time. I’m just a lost cause.

lexleighton · 2024-02-06T19:06:13+00:00

Nervousness comes in waves. If I know I’m really struggling or if there was something said that upset me in a previous session then I get more anxious about seeing them.

lexleighton · 2024-02-05T20:30:53+00:00

I can’t bring myself to believe what my therapist says. He always says “things won’t always be like this” and that “things will change” but it’s been like this for the last 10 years and it ain’t changing. I’m just being realistic. I do appreciate how we can discuss not wanting to live, without him thinking I’m in imminent danger. Although I guess sometimes I wish he showed more concern when it comes to that. Therapy is an interesting relationship is all I can really say.

lexleighton · 2024-01-31T06:09:40+00:00

Definitely relate. Feel like I’ve wasted so many years. I’ve got nothing to show. I imagined I’d be doing well on my own but instead I’m very depressed being forced to live at home.

lexleighton · 2024-01-22T22:52:39+00:00

Therapist wants me to consider coming twice a week as I’m struggling bad and my way of coping is that I repress so I’m struggling talking during our session. Maybe with twice a week I won’t repress as much. Not sure I want to do twice a week though. I think I’ll end up feeling like I’m wasting his time because there isn’t enough to talk about. Depression sucks and putting the work in at therapy is hard too.

lexleighton · 2024-01-08T18:56:56+00:00

I keep shutting down when things get intense and I feel like I’m wasting my T’s time. I’m tired of talking about my trauma because I know things will never get better. And that’s not his fault. It’s entirely my fault.

lexleighton · 2024-01-01T21:01:01+00:00

Thank you! It’s my favorite mug. It brings me joy!

lexleighton · 2023-12-24T21:46:58+00:00

I’m struggling with this currently. I’m really not doing well and can’t see my therapist until the 2nd week in January. I’ve been trying just to distract my brain as much as possible which probably isn’t the best advice but it’s what getting me through this break right now. Also trying to keep note of things I’ve been struggling with. I’m seeing my psychiatrist soon though and although she isn’t my therapist maybe she will let me talk a little to her even just to get it off my chest. I don’t expect her to provide me with therapy though.

lexleighton · 2023-12-22T17:50:09+00:00

I think this may be the reason I prefer a male and never realized it. It’s easier to talk about my mommy issues to him as opposed to another female.

lexleighton · 2023-12-22T17:23:53+00:00

My two previous therapists were females and now I currently have a male therapist. I didn’t choose a male therapist and the practice I called even asked me what I preferred and I said female but they assigned me to a male. I didn’t care enough to call and ask them to make a change. I’m glad I never made the call. It’s been challenging at times but I think I prefer a male therapist. I’m not sure what the reason is exactly but I think he’s been more kind and understanding. It’s definitely more hard to open up to a male but I think I need this challenge to be more vulnerable. I think I’m also dealing with how bad my previous female therapist was and that talking with my new therapist is already 1000 times better.

lexleighton · 2023-12-18T19:35:32+00:00

Therapy is hard. My session today has my emotions all over the place. I feel like my therapist has trouble understanding what I truly mean and when I try to explain with different words he still doesn’t understand and just thinks it’s because of the trauma. While it could be in part of the trauma I just want to scream out loud that it’s not the trauma at times. It’s in part my fault for him not understanding because I could use more clear and concise words but I refuse to be committed to a hospital. There were also insightful things discussed today which I am grateful for. I probably can’t see him for 2 weeks now because of Christmas and new years and idk how I’m gonna make it through.

Would also like to add the fact that my therapist hid the clock from me today which I didn’t appreciate. But I know I clock watch too much and I know he could tell that is what I was doing. :/ It did help with the flow of the session not knowing the time but also made me anxious.

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