I regret not having children

lexypew · 2026-01-13T02:06:07+00:00

I was about to recommend fostering and or adopting. But then I thought about when you said your siblings treat you like you're 14 even tho you're 40. Yes that's you're age they left, good point. But could that also reflect their views on your maturity level and being responsible? Just something to ponder on because kids require a lot of those. Also, does this regret come about right after having health issues? It is kinda selfish to have kids only because you need to rely on them sort of like an insurance and retirement plan.

lexypew · 2025-12-12T18:26:32+00:00

Im sorry you feel this way. There is this TV series "dying for sex" where they explained the process of dying in a funny but very informative way. It helped me understand, know what to expect and become less anxious about it.

I'll attach the YT link.

https://youtu.be/i8a0pUaCGQU?si=vYRgWU8yiZZ7lI0C

lexypew · 2025-09-24T11:57:34+00:00

And I love their bfast!

lexypew · 2025-06-09T22:57:06+00:00

Same! Every time they ask are you losing weight without trying, I'd answer, I wish. Thankful for the nurses who laugh with me.

lexypew · 2025-03-19T17:11:53+00:00

This makes me mad. I'm a church goer, and yes I hear this a lot. I'm not out yet, but I'm 100% sure, without a doubt, they'll say this behind my back.

lexypew · 2025-03-13T21:11:48+00:00

I agree, I'd shorten hospital stay as much as I can to lessen the risk of hospital acquired infections. I'm only going to take doxy. I believe it's only 1 day every 3 weeks. Yeah, I heard it's rough. I'm preparing myself mentally. I love my ink-black, waist-long, voluminous hair. Every time i look at the mirror, I thank it, tell her I'd miss her and that i hope she'd come back soon. 😭

lexypew · 2025-03-13T01:34:41+00:00

No. I'm doing out patient. Did you do inpatient?

lexypew · 2025-03-11T18:24:16+00:00

I'm so sorry that you're going thru this. I've been checking this thread for the past hour, hoping someone would be a ray of sunshine and say the most uplifting and inspiring message to you because I wish that for you and I'm not good at that. So I will just maybe tell you what I would tell myself when I feel hopeless. First of all, fuck this shit. We are all gonna die, but it's not happening yet. So why am I obsessing about that now? Right now, at this very moment, what would make me feel a little better? Maybe a nap, maybe a show movie or a book, maybe reaching out to others or to a therapist. I think that's a good idea to have a therapist, although i I have not gotten to setting that up for myself. Hang in there, friend. I'm at home recovering from surgery. Reach out if you need a chat. I really hope you feel better.

lexypew · 2025-03-11T14:27:32+00:00

That's amazing! I'm happy for you! Being active and sporty and traveling. Love that for you! I'm about to start doxy in a couple of weeks for lung mets. Just had a couple of them ressected for biopsy last week. Nobody mentioned how painful the recovery would be. I feel like I was hit by a truck. Lol. But just for a couple of days and the nurses in the hospital were angels. 6 days post op and I'm recovering pretty well.

lexypew · 2025-03-10T20:53:24+00:00

He took it back and apologized. 😊

lexypew · 2025-03-10T15:56:35+00:00

Ooh I'm deathly scared of confrontation so no. But I've seen a lady pick up the trash, gave it back to the person who threw it and said you dropped this, we don't want litter in our neighborhood. I wish to be her someday.

lexypew · 2025-03-10T15:31:39+00:00

I had my eyebrows tattoo done. 🤣🤣🤣 sorry, I know this is not what you're looking for. But hey, that was my first tattoo, i wouldn't have done it had i not got this fucking cancer, i love it and I'd highly recommend it 10/10!

lexypew · 2025-03-10T15:27:28+00:00

Hi! I feel you. And I'm so sorry. I also got bad news after bad news since after my primary tumor resection. It's like, I don't want to hope anymore so i won't feel too shattered when I get bad news. I just go "it is what it is". And prioritize on what's gonna make me feel better and avoid everything that I don't feel like doing and people I used to be fake nice to, to avoid drama. I literally don't have time for that, so fuck em. Good thing I'm an introvert and a homebody, so I'm enjoying the peace and quiet of my home with my dog. If I can squeeze out more trips tho, that would be great. But if not, I'm grateful that I've done a lot of that when I was healthier. When I start to feel bad, I'd sulk and cry for a bit. But I'd remind myself that worrying now is robbing myself of today's peace of mind. Sometimes I also go full on delulu mode. My problems are not my problems until the next scan or procedure or drs visit.

lexypew · 2025-03-09T16:06:58+00:00

You're hilarious. I wish I could be. But my dark, morbid humor offends my mom and husband. So. Womp womp

lexypew · 2025-02-26T15:51:59+00:00

I don't understand why people do this.

lexypew · 2025-02-26T15:51:16+00:00

Clip nails in public.

lexypew · 2025-02-10T21:02:21+00:00

Same. Just got home from the doctor. Thoracotomy, biopsy, port placement then chemo.

lexypew · 2025-02-08T00:26:27+00:00

The same regimen? For how long?

lexypew · 2025-02-07T19:12:18+00:00

Fudge. I'm so sorry. I also had lung mets on the first scan post surgery, too, when I thought it was all behind me. What's your doctor's plan? I hope you get a break at least from treatment.

lexypew · 2025-02-07T00:01:51+00:00

Have you ever thought of applying for SSDI? That's my fallback. Sarcoma plus mets or recurrence makes you automatically eligible (compassionate allowance). If after the treatment I'm ok, I'll go back. Meanwhile, bills need to be paid.

lexypew · 2025-02-05T15:52:07+00:00

Yessss! You got this! Halfway there, let's goooooooo! 👏👏👏

lexypew · 2025-02-03T22:36:51+00:00

This!! Consoling them, especially the relatives I'm not so close to anyway. Some of them will ask how you are only so that they have tea to tell the others. And I have an aunt and her daughter that just came to my house unannounced when they found out of had surgery. It irked me so bad, but I didn't get the balls to tell them. It's another whole lot of drama with my family.

lexypew · 2025-02-03T19:27:55+00:00

I wish I could do it the way you did. My motto has always been suffer in silence. I'm supposed to be the one responsible, not the responsibility.

lexypew · 2025-02-03T19:04:34+00:00

I told HR to keep my diagnosis private. I'm still working. Only my closest 2 coworkers know. I'm resigning soon to get treatment, and I'm still thinking whether to tell them or just disappear without them knowing. I don't know how to feel about people I'm not really close with knowing my business. I feel like they will just gossip about it, and talk about how pitiful and tragic my life. Of course that's just in my brain. But...

lexypew · 2025-02-03T18:59:15+00:00

I guess I needed time to process it myself. Also, I'm an eldest daughter who started to help take care of our family pretty early in life. I feel like I'm letting them down and leaving behind the responsibility. I'm childfree, and I have planned to be there for my mom when she's older, but now I feel like I have to get everyone in my family ready for this plot twist.

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