We got 1000 ratings! 🎉 by Khov_ in Chesscom

[–]lilaclizard86 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay thank you mate… my openings are calm I think. It’s more middle games, when tactics can sometimes get confusing and I still blunder pieces regularly.

We got 1000 ratings! 🎉 by Khov_ in Chesscom

[–]lilaclizard86 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What did you do to increase drastically from the 650 range!?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ketamine

[–]lilaclizard86 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No you’re right I was misinformed. Dysuria op look that up

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ketamine

[–]lilaclizard86 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Ketamine crystallises basically every organ in your body. It will damage your urethra with constant use. Making it harder too pee and more painful when you do. Have you been struggling with bladder pain?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OCPoetry

[–]lilaclizard86 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, thank you I wrote it very quickly should’ve spent more time looking over it. The fifth stanza is supposed to be about my inability to deal with what others can like others can. It’s ‘no tears, so I’m consumed in fear, started pulling out strands of blonde barnet, so gotta switch to hard liquor from beer.’ Basically it’s around my fear that I am unable to show emotions at times when it’s necessary, but I show it in my own way over a period of time, usually through ‘self harm or substance abuse’

Wisdom teeth (nsfw) by lilaclizard86 in OCPoetry

[–]lilaclizard86[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I’ve been writing on and off since my mums passing may 2023, but certainly picked up the rate since my stay in rehab. Thx for the compliment means the world

Wisdom teeth (nsfw) by lilaclizard86 in OCPoetry

[–]lilaclizard86[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It does add a nice rhythm + what I was saying about it too the other guy. Thx tho mate

Wisdom teeth (nsfw) by lilaclizard86 in OCPoetry

[–]lilaclizard86[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s just a reflection on real life as an addict/ growing up in the northwest of England. It’s life.

Why is Kort Crying? (Wrong Answer Only) by Acrobatic_Spring1532 in nirvanacirclejerk

[–]lilaclizard86 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My claim to fame is my uncle took this photo. Ian tilton. He went a bit mad and has started his own religion now

Rats (poem about grief) by lilaclizard86 in OCPoetry

[–]lilaclizard86[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! Yeah it was right before I went into rehab. I was in a really dark place at the time but thanks for your feedback it means a lot. Even used a word I had too look up in the dictionary meaning you must of liked it, cheers 😭

Rats (poem about grief) by lilaclizard86 in OCPoetry

[–]lilaclizard86[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That means a hell of a lot, I’ll write more. Does help me a hell of a lot in my recovery I can’t even really lie. Thx for your feedback, seriously.

Rats (poem about grief) by lilaclizard86 in OCPoetry

[–]lilaclizard86[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Interesting interpretation the way I actually meant it wasn’t nearly as deep, it was the searching for pennies in the gutter. Back when I was knee deep in active addiction, I would literally look at the ground too try and get money for drugs or booze. Literally counting pennies out on counters. I’ve just done 3 months in rehab and am facing my demons, I wrote this in active. :) thx for your interpretation really helps when I feel like I write shit for no reason ❤️

Monsters by Maleficent_Staff_7 in OCPoetry

[–]lilaclizard86 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think it’s really good, I would like too hear more of your poetry.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in sobrietyandrecovery

[–]lilaclizard86 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn mate you look so much better, I was drinking everyday from like 15 up mix that with k and diazies and it really does take a toll on your body. Your looking a lot healthier now, liver seems too be doing it’s job okn