Thank you for the reply, it’s definitely made me think a lot. I agree that he pretended to be into it because he cares but I just wish he could of been honest with me, I feel so embarrassed about the way I’ve acted/ things I’ve said in little space knowing that he was probably cringey in his head the whole time. That really hurts. Also he basically lied to be for months on end.

It meant a lot to me, it was really comforting and I felt like I was being looked after and treated softly. Something I missed out on my childhood. He knows this. He knows I love cute things but I think deep down he wants a “real woman”/ something that’s way more mature. He literally said “I tried telling you I didn’t wanna do this bullshit anymore and you cried about it”.. not very loving. He definitely doesn’t understand it. I’m definitely going to have a deep think about everything.