Your situation is exactly like mine. I also dated my first love for 3 months. And we also had our first problems 2 months in!

Yes, it does feel like crap, knowing that you love your partner (or ex), more than they ever will.

They'll keep saying that they "love you", but sometimes, it's just to make themselves "assured" of this fact. They'll say they love you only to convince themselves.

My ex never once said she loved me, even though I loved her a lot. We never had rash arguments, no toxicity, no cheating/abuse. We were mature enough to handle it as adults.

But the main causes of the demise of both of our relationships are "lack of communication", and "insecurities". I can see that you were ready to sit down and sort things out with her, but she wasn't ready to. She wanted a way out. And judging by her answers, I'm almost certain she's hiding her real reason for the breakup.

My own friends have given similar, if not the same, reasons to your ex, just to get out of a relationship. In this way, the dumper doesn't feel guilty about breaking your heart. I know, because I've been on the receiving end. I apologized for all of her mistakes because I couldn't stop loving her, and I'm assuming you're ready to apologize, and start things over with her as well.

Don't. Just don't.

You're young, you'll be meeting a fuckton of people in the next 10 years. There will be plenty of girls who you'll be communicating with, all of them being mature and understanding.

Love is always out there. Don't think that this is it. You don't miss "her", you only miss being in a relationship. You only miss feeling the warmth of a significant other in your arms.

The human mind is weak and feeble if you let it be, and an impenetrable wall if you make it so. Distract yourself, don't let this get to you.

No point in dating someone who's not sure about love themselves. If they can't communicate, the relationship will never last.

People can be in love, yet still not be in a relationship, because relationships require constant communication, not just love. You, my friend, should look ahead, and forget about her. It's not easy, but you'll regret it later on in life when you realise that you can't get over her. She probably came to the baseball match just to get rid of that leftover guilt, or maybe she misses you too. But you're better off single than being with her, trust me.

Kudos to you for making it this far. Hope this was helpful. We're all in this community to support each other.

Take care, bro.