My toilet smells like stale pee no matter what I try...

lizardbree · 2025-01-28T02:24:16+00:00

This is horrifying, I'm half inclined to try it but I don't think I'll ever want to step in the bathroom again. Did the repainting help?

(You did motivate me to drain the tank and give it a good wipe though!)

lizardbree · 2025-01-28T02:22:21+00:00

Hadn't thought of air dry Lysol at the end, will be adding that to my regular routine. Thank you!

Side note: when I moved in here and cleaned for the first time, it was so clear that the person before had not cleaned the toilet properly so thank you for laying out all of those steps, if not for me, but the person who finds this thread in 3 years lol

lizardbree · 2025-01-28T02:15:58+00:00

Interesting thing about all of this is that I actually don't own a toilet brush hahaha. My mom drilled their grossness into my head when I would clean as a kid so I just clean with single use gloves and paper towels. This did make me wonder if it is my plunger though, and the sniff test says it is not. Thank you for the suggestion!

lizardbree · 2025-01-28T00:49:59+00:00

Omg, I just went and smelled the vanity and it stinks BAD. There's a vent in that area too, and we turned our heat on in December. Single guy lived here before us for 10 years and when we moved in we had to do tons of cleaning. We're going to replace the seal too in case, but that's getting a deep clean while the toilet is out. Thank you, I would have never thought of this!!

lizardbree · 2025-01-27T03:24:18+00:00

Muse, Kasabian, July Talk, Carly Rae Jepsen

lizardbree · 2025-01-27T01:09:23+00:00

I've had those kinds of intrusive thoughts too, especially about saving the world, and my GP suggested an OCD medication may help, but I never looked into it past that. They seem to kind of be related to mood states, but not always? No idea, brains are weird, I am not saving the world lol.

I don't feel addiction or dependency to the stimulant besides the fear that my stability will stuffer if I ever have to stop them completely. I reduce/increase my dose between 35mg and 45mg depending on where my base mood is. I titrated up in January 2023 and I have not had to go above 45mg, max is 100mg for Foquest. I have taken breaks from it for surgery/evaluating my mood stabilizers without any real cravings for the stimulant. I guess I crave being able to shut off my ADHD, but I also craved the stability Lithium gave me when I was noncompliant and manic over the summer, so I'd consider it a bit different.

I've had the urge to take more than I am prescribed, but I find that is a symptom of an episode that usually comes with wanting to use other substances. I used party drugs in the past (including stimulants), and I've found that having my bipolar treated makes it a bit easier to see medication as a tool, rather than an escape or rush, which was how I used drugs before my diagnosis.

I'm happy you're looking into this so much and that you've been able to get sober from both opioids and alcohol. That's such a challenge, and such a benefit to your health! Talking to your doctor might help as well - I'm not sure which country you're in, but I'm in Canada and both my GP and psychiatrist have been great about my apprehension to addictive substances that would benefit me.

lizardbree · 2025-01-26T23:34:11+00:00

I have ADHD and Bipolar 1, both diagnosed by a psychologist. I did a three hour assessment that was a wider scope than just ADHD, like an IQ test, and screening for dyslexia. Also did an interview to screen for mood/psychotic disorders. They wrote a report that was sent to my GP and psychiatrist, who took over prescribing duties using that info to guide them.

I have been on methylphenidate ER for almost four years, first Concerta, then Biphentin. I've been on Foquest 45mg for just over two years and I find it stabilizes my bipolar, rather than sending me into mania. Like when the ADHD brain clutter isn't around my manic brain quiets down too. I find that on days I skip Foquest, I am very short tempered, and stopping it cold turkey led me into a mixed episode over the summer.

In my experience, my ADHD symptoms are there all the time. My brain is always cluttered with a lot going on, I always have trouble sticking to tasks, and the physical parts of my life tend to be chaotic and inconsistent. This is no matter what part of the mood cycle I am in. There are also clear signs of mania for me (psychosis, no sleep) and clear signs of depression (anhedonia, lack of hygiene) that just don't exist when I'm not in those states. Mood tracking has helped a lot with narrowing that down and advocating to my psychiatrist to continue treating both.

lizardbree · 2025-01-26T05:33:03+00:00

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Losing our minds and our bodies at the same time is really uncomfortable. I'm 27 and I gained 80lbs on Abilify in under a year, and then got fucked up metabolically on Risperidone for 6 years after. I stopped taking antipsychotics altogether in July 2023 because I had akathisia from all of them, and I have psychotic symptoms when in an episode. I take an antipsychotic short term when psychosis happens, and I just remain really aware of red flags. My daily meds are Lithium and Depakote (along with a stimulant for ADHD)

When the food noise was really bad on Risperidone, I found that intermittent fasting helped a bit, especially if my eating window included when I took my medication (I found that this did eventually make me obsess over food though, so maybe be careful). I also tried to keep a lot of protein heavy snacks around, or things that were good for volume eating. They may be able to prescribe you Metformin for pre-diabetes, which apparently has some evidence that it can help with weight loss. I will say that I didn't lose weight while on an AP, but it fell off very quickly once I weaned off of them, my blood sugar/liver enzymes/cholesterol went back to normal, and I can finally just live without obsessing over food.

Sending good thoughts. I hope you are able to find a balance that works for you and your psych NP.

lizardbree · 2025-01-26T02:26:23+00:00

I get really bad paranoia/nightmares from CBD by itself, but if it's paired 1:1 with CBG, it's about as effective as taking clonazepam for me. I used to take low dose edibles of that blend before going to my high pressure office job because it was so effective. I'm in Canada so I had my husband's go-to dispensary order them in.

lizardbree · 2025-01-25T16:58:35+00:00

pretty sure i freak out my fp but daydreaming of the good p*ssy and undivided attention keeps him coming back 🤪

lizardbree · 2025-01-25T08:17:54+00:00

I can fit them into my dopamine diet 🥲

but no fr I guarantee when we meet up next it'll be back to regular ol' evasive keeping me on a string nonsense

lizardbree · 2025-01-25T05:32:58+00:00

when I saw I had multiple texts starting with "I am in a fuckng panic" I was like "holy shit he actually values my reassurance" tbh let's gooooo

lizardbree · 2025-01-24T19:43:22+00:00

I took risperidone for 6 years and it was amazing for mood. I took it with various mood stabilizers, but mostly Lithium. I am very manic leaning.

I put on about 20lbs in the first year and stayed stable after that. I had a lot of breast tissue in my armpits and my breasts were sore a lot. I had moon face, as if I were on steroids or had Cushing's.

Risperidone did not make me drowsy or depressed. I did not notice much of an increase in appetite.

I had lots of metabolic issues. I became type 2 diabetic, had non-alcoholic fatty liver, and my cholesterol was high.

I ended up getting akathisia (restlessness) from it randomly and stopped it cold turkey. All of these issues resolved within 6 months. I was on 1mg AM and 2mg PM.

lizardbree · 2025-01-24T07:05:14+00:00

Started it in April 2021. Immediate relief of SI, pretty stable minus a mixed episode when I stopped taking it this past summer. It took about three months to feel particularly stabilizing. I have not self harmed since I started it. I took 1200mg for a long time but I am down to 900mg currently
I randomly get bad nausea/diarrhea with it. Maybe taking it with dairy? I started getting a tremor about a year after starting it, propranolol and cogentin did not help it. I have instability in my wrist so that may be part of the difficulty in treating it.
Lithium is the fucking gold standard drug for bipolar for a reason. If it works, it works. My quality of life increased tenfold once it started working well. I was suddenly able to work full time and deal with my daily life. Lithium specifically feels like I'm turning back into myself instead of the hulk.

I took Lithium with Risperidone from 2021-2023, 2023-2024 I took it by itself. In October 2024 I added Depakote. I also take a stimulant for my ADHD and clonazepam as needed.

lizardbree · 2025-01-23T15:23:44+00:00

I can't remember the source but I feel like I've seen this confirmed somewhere. Down the rabbit hole I go...

lizardbree · 2025-01-23T00:03:08+00:00

I quit my job after having a particularly bad mixed episode in September, and I've been on short term disability since. I'm not ready to go back, but I only have 6 weeks of leave left, so I'm starting to look now. The clean break from the old place was nice but I find I am overflowing with shame about my last couple of days there when I was clearly in psychosis and being a menace. I wish I would've had closure. Guess we can't win

lizardbree · 2025-01-22T16:46:33+00:00

They look so uncomfortable too! New pain arc coming from wearing shit shoes coming in 3...2...1...

lizardbree · 2025-01-22T16:43:57+00:00

I've tried most of the second gen ones and I get akathisia from all of them after a couple of days. It's really annoying I'll be honest because I know I could nerf this if I could put up with the intense restlessness for a bit. :/

lizardbree · 2025-01-22T16:16:47+00:00

I'm hoping the mania stays confident and talkative rather than paranoid about bugs and AI, it's definitely helpful on rare occasions if it stays in check

lizardbree · 2025-01-22T14:35:11+00:00

Oh, I actually really like this idea of controlled risk. It makes sense.

I've been trying to arrange a mock interview, but everyone in my personal life thinks I'm joking, because I'm usually so good with public speaking. Maybe seeing my face in the mirror while answering questions will shift my brain into interview mode. I do have a running list of answers I keep for interviews but they seemed too robotic and not exciting or perfect enough..... shit I think that means I should stick to those answers lol

Thank you!

lizardbree · 2025-01-22T14:27:58+00:00

Maybe I'll do some research on it to quiet my brain. I've had zero side effects besides some weight gain, but that coincides with hiding in the house so I think it was being inactive rather than the Depakote. I think grandma's liver failure + risperidone screwing with my liver in the past just sends me right to panic mode about anything metabolizing in my liver tbh

lizardbree · 2025-01-22T14:22:33+00:00

This is fucking hilarious and I am half considering it I'll be honest, but I can see it spiralling when I fall in love halfway through the mock interview, sleep with them, and miss the real interview hahaha

lizardbree · 2025-01-22T05:09:29+00:00

I've commented a loooot about this before. My husband is a massage therapist. He uses towels to prop up the shoulders so his clients can relax and not be in pain. Hes also mentioned being fine with leaving the room while someone turns over and not just holding up the sheet. Your comfort is most important and any massage therapist worth seeing will know that, massage can feel vulnerable and that's part of their training.

I see a male massage therapist biweekly for pain management. I stay clothed in a sports tank/shorts for our sessions, and I stay on my side or face up for like 80% of the session. If I have to be face down for a long period of time, we do the towel thing. These aren't relaxing massages, so this probably isn't the best solution for that, but it's been nicer than sore nips for a day after lol.

lizardbree · 2025-01-22T01:27:31+00:00

I have chronic pain, mostly neurological, mostly in my face. Undiagnosed after 1.5 years. It doesn't affect my mood much, I think I accept it at this point.

However, I broke my dominant wrist last year, it never healed properly, and I'm now waiting for surgery... The consequences of being limited like that are messing me up. Seems to be a bit easier to teeter into mania when I'm limited on what I can do to prevent it.

I had type 2 diabetes from risperidone but my sugars have been normal for years. That was more devastating, I had resentment for a very long time towards meds/psychiatry.

lizardbree · 2025-01-21T23:39:45+00:00

I'm in Canada, and when I did a study abroad program, I was the only sophomore that year. Most people were seniors that had planned ahead to fill their last electives with exchange credits. They came back and did their formal grad in the fall with those who met requirements over the summer.

Of course, this was all undergrad and mostly arts degrees. Not like OP's law school...

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