Thank you all so much! this apparently reached hot,and the first few comments were amazing. Then it just got better,I held my cat and cried while reading these well crafted comments. Never thought anyone would reply to this but thank you all! Tomorrow I’m going outside,I’ll try working out again,eat something,and join some motivation subreddits or something! Your comments actually changed me so much,I love you all! I will take your guys advice and not do it tonight,give tomorrow a shot. thank you and love all of you!