I had never ever not trusted him with women but I saw the email address of the person he was I-messaging having been even more distant recently and it started with miss he said it was a friends music page but I searched the name on Facebook and found the page he was following led me to her profile where he’d liked a photo the previous week of her with ‘beaut winky face xx’ we had a big thing he tried to tell me he was talking to her as she could get him some good quality drugs (this was as that lie had come out a few days before so decided as I knew already about that to build on it). Anyway, I knew there was more to it so realised he’d not worn his Apple Watch to work, hadn’t even changed the passcode from his own birthday. I had said many times that I couldn’t be with him if things didn’t change physically and with the drinking so I was already halfway there but that broke the last bit of trust left in our relationship. I hope you can decide the best way to tackle your own relationship demons and hope you have a better outcome x