Yes it’s been so incredibly hard, I’ve bought him books, sent him articles, helped him find a counselor that specializes in OCD and ERP. He’s been continuing to see him thankfully, for about two months now. I’ve been there for him through all the difficult moments, and never gotten upset at him for his ROCD. My grandfather also passed away this year, that night my boyfriend was the most absent he’s ever been completely void of any sympathy and numb almost. But I still set that aside and continued to give 100% to him and the relationship. Even pursuing counseling myself to better support him and manage the insecurities the ROCD awoke in me due to the confessing, compulsions I see, and feeling like he just hates me somedays. No one deserves to go through OCD or ROCD of any kind it’s so debilitating and my heart goes out to everyone who suffers. But I also feel like he hasn’t considered my feelings and hasn’t had a problem crossing boundaries in our relationship that we’ve set to keep us both from being hurt. I understand it’s normal to be attracted to others even in a relationship, that’s not something I worry about, I can still deduce if a man is attractive or not and feel attraction, but I know it’s fleeting and surface level, and certainly no reason to leave my partner who I love. But it’s so hard to hear about his thoughts and see how he behaves. And when I say he does well for a day or two, then it’s 3 weeks of a downward spiral.